It's 1 AM, can't sleep, brain keeps feeding me sensations from a tail that isn't there, looking through Bluesky, feeling crappy.

I think reading the posts of other Therians is bad for my mental health. If I didn't have this mental disorder myself, then I would assume it was a joke or something.

I am in pain. I hate being a therian. (or whatever)

Invasive and disturbing thoughts. Strong and illogical feelings with no clear definition. This nagging sensation of dissatisfaction or loss relating to the shape of my body.

The pain of eating something you know you are allergic to like... "I knew this would happen. I have no one to blame for this pain but myself. I should not have eaten that hazel nut chocolate."

Man. I wish that conversion therapy actually worked. I'd love to have control over my sexuality.

If I could choose, I would choose to be demisexual and straight. Or bi, perhaps.

I don't know if posts from Therian's make me feel better or worse about my own species dysphoria.

On one hand, it's comforting to know that I'm not the only one who struggles with this. On the other hand, my gut reactions are extremely negative.

I feel like a freak. Why couldn't I have a normal mental illness like ADHD or something? Why do I gotta have some weird unnamed and un-known body dysmorphia type disorder?

I just want to curl into a ball and cry. But for whatever reason, I can't. It sucks. And I'm tired.

Species dysphoria is hitting me like a truck. I feel both mentally and physically uncomfortable in ways I can not describe or even fully understand. And my body keeps pausing, then doing a little muscle spasm. Like restless leg syndrome type nonsense, except full body.

Who are all these people following me? Why would you do that? I don't even have anything interesting to say.

Why are there so many images tagged #furry when it's just a real life NSFW porn shot of real people without anything even slightly furry in the image? #discussion Not complaining, just asking.

I'll be honest.

1 AM is not a good time for me mentally. I feel stressed and anxious. I do not feel happy about being gay or deviant right now. And I'm thinking some horribly unkind things about myself that I know I would never apply to someone else.

One of the great things about being on an alt account is that I can comment on porn!

Time to go give some artists some validation.

Why do people keep following me? I'm the horny alt account of a closeted gay furry with body issues.

I don't even post anything.

I keep seeing posts that are very clearly responding to something. But I can't for the life of me find what they are responding too. It's frustrating as hell, and I'm low key considering quitting the site because of it. (And other annoyances)

I'm not sure how I feel about bluesky. It feels like shouting out into the void. Maybe I'm just using it wrong, but I feel this strong sense of impermanence. Like I'm trying to have a conversation by shouting to people in passing cars.

I've never used Twitter, but I'm sure it's the same.

#therian #species_dysphoria #questioning

I need input from the therians of bluesky.

I've got species dysphoria. Had it all my life. I even experience phantom tail/snout sensations sometimes when it gets real bad.

I am home! Finally, I can be alone and indulge in my furry degeneracy.

Me: I need to sleep.

My brain: Penis.

Me: Um... okay. But right now I gotta-

My brain: Furry men.

Me: I'm tired.

My brain: Dick, Balls, Cuddles, Lust!

Me: Stooooooooop!

Why so much space content? Did I click a bubble for "interested in space" or something?

I'm just here for furry NSFW, queer discussions, and any discourse at all pertaining to my specific mental illnesses.

😔