nun massacre

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I showed another friend.

Their testimonial was "What's the opposite of 'I miss Tenna?'"

just a quick update to this

um

hes still a fucking loser and i no longer feel like this over him

he fucking sucks haha

if ur ever feeling like i did make sure to check their social media to remind yourself how big of a fuck up they are. you'll thank me later.

not sure if its the "punk" equivalent necessarily, even with the massive amounts of dung that pass as punk communities, they seldom advocate for what he did. it feels more like a "beginner to deeper-than-surface-level music" equivalent. the kind to bingewatch seth putnam documentaries, idolizing him

and ultimately you become a husk of your former self that only lives out of inertia and propelled by momentum required to function in society but deep down you are more unfixable than a glass vase steamrolled 500 times

and then you have to already fix your pre existing issues because no one ever truly loves you for who you are as every 28yo redditor with more fwbs than fingers tells you but then recall no one will fill the void either because you dont have the same shared past or personality with them

and then you find out they have had several partners during the time in which you siffered so you lowkey want to become a recluse and isolate almost completely because love without affection from someone you desire is meaningless

and then u spiral for months grieving them as if they died because you can never interact with them anymore and now the void that they left will never ever be filled so you spend time strengthening your friendships to compensate only for it not to fucking work