I love you more than I could love any other boy. I hope I still have love in my heart after pouring so much out on you. And I hope you felt loved & at peace in your final moments. I should have been there before your heart stopped. I should have held you while you still breathed. I'm so sorry, boy.

It's a small comfort that he passed peacefully. I only wish I had more time. That I could have prepared and given him the best day ever before he would be put down. Instead, I got a text message as I stepped out for coffee and returned to him being aggressively resuscitated. He deserved better.

I will always carry a bottomless pit in my heart where he used to be. I am devastated beyond anything I have ever felt. I told him we would have 15 years together. I failed this promise. I told him constantly that I would be a wreck if he ever dies. This part came true.

I will never hear the sounds that only he makes ever again. I will never see his snout poking out over the window as he screams and yelps at me as I arrive home. I will never feel his paw clawing at me while I cry as he attempts to comfort me.

Good God

For "wrestling" of course

I should get into this whole singlet situation. For wrestling and stuff

You're definitely turning into one 👀

And I am interested in a future career change lol

I didn't mean like an actual profession but my interest has now officially been re-sparked 👀