i've had a hard time today keeping my submissive nature in check today. i found it particularly hard at work to tell others what to do, and kept having these constant "daydreams" about everyone i encountered laughing at me, bossing me around...

i keep having this thought that i need to be exposed. That at least some of the people who see as "important man with power and in control" need to know how primed i am to crumble and give into to those mental to be above me. i know it's a bad idea, and plan to keep it from happening.

More and more, i'm finding that Some Women make me feel like i should give into their will as i kind of forget to assert myself. i basically believe what they tell me and do as i'm told. It makes me feel small and vulnerable and inferior, but oddly "right." i still keep this change in me hidden.

i often feel like power and authority isn't really meant for me. i've gotten used to it over the years (having it, exercising it), but feel more and more like i should give it over to women better suited to it.

i want to be the kind of man that submits to Women i know are above me.

i genuinely wish the world was run by Women. men have proved we can't handle it. We men can help and support, but the Women should be in charge.