I should add I made sure they knew that even if I'm dealing with stuff they can still lean on me and they said "of course! You're the parent! It's your job!" Which I'm very glad about but will also have complicated Feelings about out of their sight

But that my thought it was a given that I wouldn't lean on them for emotional support because they were the kid and if we talk about hard things its so I can support them made me feel I'm doing something right. But also made me Deal With Feelings about my childhood

I should say I already mentioned and had lined up a group I could go to talk about this stuff. It was also specific stuff that my husband can't always support me on and I didn't go into detail with my kid.

It's still hard though because I've been really isolated since 2017 when my health collapsed completely. So meeting people and developing a social circle (which was hard before) feels Impossible. Especially as I don't know how to mask my autism anymore

Hah I wrote a fic about them being soulmates (derogatory) once but thats really what they are