and it's canon. im having the time of my fucking life

the yuhua cameo in the background 👀👀👀

but a visual artist who doesnt do That Specific Kind Of Physical Activity just. doesnt have any concept of exactly how stubborn that area is.

and this is a concept that applies to basically everything-- you dont ever truly understand what you've never had to contend with firsthand ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

like i can look at a drawing of viktor arching like it's his job and go "that is literally a position that takes years of backbend training for an adult to achieve" becuase im acutely aware of what my OWN training is like and how far i can bend and what it feels like and how much muscle it takes,

i think it speaks to a fascinating gap in knowledge from a lack of physical experience with the pose they're drawing-- ppl might use images or virtual dolls as references, which will not take into account the experience of the character they're drawing (or even of the average regular human)

🥲 it really is just A Feeling to be posting my silly little costume videos and then have people tell me i give them hope, or post a tutorial and have people say it's potentially life saving............. like im literally just some guy but here we are

this thread sounds a lot like im sucking my own dick about it lmao but really it just is a strange feeling to contend with-- doing something solely for the purpose of serving your community, and then seeing the effect it creates. the joy. and you go "ohhh right ok so. this is what im here for."

i had a woman, back in santa cruz, take one look at me and tell me my "aura is beautiful" and that im "very important." this happened TWICE (i dont think she remembered me the second time, and was just as taken aback as the first time). i think about that often in relation to the work im doing here