i'm normal again

apparently this is called a happiness hangover and is completely normal and i just need to take a few minutes to vibe and i'll be fine

happy it's almost 5am
also this is apparently just who I'm supposed to be ifg

there is nothing i want more than to have the liberty to repaint and or wallpaper my bedroom and relay the flooring and hang cool shelves and plants and all kinds of shit ykwim
like i can picture so clearly in my mind and i got that weird aphantasia adjacent nonsense

like i can physically feel this level of stress kind of stress. There is a tension from my scalp to the base of my spine that makes me feel cold all over. and is not in the least bit helpful at all.

And I want to be clear here. I don't mean 'things that help you destress' here. I mean 'things that not doing causes stress that would reduce significantly if you just did them, but you can't because you're so stressed you can't move.'

ntm the long term effects high stress has on the body

Original post seems to be deleted, so here's the link again: action.aclu.org/petition/mas...

like definitely for sure? a major flaw if mind is if you yell at me i turn into a prey animal who has to hide not only from you but also every other living person (even uf i KNOW they're not mad at me) & have to spend a full week reasoning with myself just to get me to reach out to my friends again.

anyway if you read this far i love you and i hope you're having a better night slash December than i am