My dad showed me the sex and birth scenes from Twilight when i was a child it's probably why

and i feel like ive been fostering the next instance of this .... i need to uh, have backbone and allat

i've had like at least 10 different people say theyve jerked to me since i was like 15 and i ve always been like Okay Yay! that's something i should mentally address at some point

maybe the thing where i actively sought out people gooning to me was a bad thing to do as a child dont know maybe i was/am just a freak and should not let my brain be a freak

It's why i don't like being happy, because it allows that state to somewhat open back up and i go go back to it because i like the attention

made it up and mostly forgot that i did

and not let me spiral into a state where im so consumed by it that i ruin my ohysical form again

you've heard for yourself. you just assume. have you proven every law of physics and intended function? i doubt so. one can thus easily believe falsehoods. this is why religion exists it's just a differance in this interpretation

in my defence i completely forgot about that idea like 5 minutes later

This makes alot of sense ro me ... hmm ... that is a better meaning than what i had originally been thinking