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Hello! I like Sonic
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October 20, 2024 at 3:00 AM
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I wrote some stuff from Alan's perspective the other day

It wasn't really for anything, just to get in the character's headspace
I close my eyes again in hopes of relief But in a blink I’m somewhere else An ordinary day Across from me was someone I loved I think, and yet. I can’t recognize them, not anymore But the disappointment, the hint of sadness I mistakenly overlooked When the words I can’t control come out once more. It still hurts more than anything I just experienced. I walk out, again, and again I wish I could just stop And look at her once more. Hoping that in some way, She could understand how much I took her for granted. Before I sit down, to play the damn game once again. Before I’m greeted with ITS face. I find my eyes are open once again But no matter how hard I close them, I keep opening them And once again, I see ITS face. I’m reminded of this intense spite, the kind that tightens your throat That makes your face strain, and grits your teeth. IT has to know how much I hate it, right? I remember being told I tend to wear my feelings on my face, but is it the same with this new body? I hope so. Does it even care? IT guilts me with words of gesture and gratitude, like I had some part to play in all of this. It should be obvious how untrue that is. And yet, when IT brings me back for another “game”. I’m confronted with the possibility that IT may not be as wrong as I thought. All those faces There’s so many, some even so young. I didn’t think playing some random game could result in this, so how could they? They don’t even know what they’re in store for as they laugh, scream, criticize, all for taking some ounce of interest. I’m not responsible for their deaths, I have to remind myself of that. They probably don’t even register me as a person. But it’s me who wears the skin of some character they’re interested in. Like in some way I’m the one who leads them to their… Do I deserve this? I let it happen to myself. What’s the point in complaining when it changes nothing. I feel humiliated, and used. She would be so disappointed. The pain never lasted this long before. I thought I would grow numb. I feel like laughing. I should have known how stupid I was to think that. The feeling of blood flooding my lungs, oh GOD how it stings Wishing it could just end already, but it’s barely just begun. Still better than what’s about to come next. I’m scared of what IT is capable of. But I’m scared of my thoughts more. I just want to shut my eyes, and experience nothing for once.
August 16, 2025 at 9:36 PM
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7/6
X turns to look towards us, no visible damage on him "LET'S TRY AGAIN, SHALL WE." X's shoe rises, blood dripping from underneath "I hope to god they really don't understand." remains "Cause if they do..." "There's no hope..."
August 25, 2025 at 7:22 AM