the speck.
@ihnmaimsl.bsky.social
rant/vent acc | mdni | nsfw thoughts | tw regarding: depression, anxiety, ed(?) kinda, internalized fatphobia/homophobia/hatred (trying to work on it), vents regarding my thoughts abt love, etc.
dni unless i gave u permission to follow
dni unless i gave u permission to follow
wanna have my hands held
December 18, 2025 at 6:09 AM
wanna have my hands held
wanna b told my lashes are pretty
December 18, 2025 at 6:09 AM
wanna b told my lashes are pretty
just let me go to sleep
December 18, 2025 at 5:29 AM
just let me go to sleep
throat feels like its wrapped around with barbed wire on the inside.
December 18, 2025 at 5:22 AM
throat feels like its wrapped around with barbed wire on the inside.
i can’t feel annoying again pls i just wanna talk to my friends
December 18, 2025 at 4:56 AM
i can’t feel annoying again pls i just wanna talk to my friends
nononononono not again pls not again i just came back to see my friends no pls
December 18, 2025 at 4:56 AM
nononononono not again pls not again i just came back to see my friends no pls
fuck it’s hitting again and I hate it
December 18, 2025 at 4:50 AM
fuck it’s hitting again and I hate it
is it stupid to ask for a boyfriend for christmas
December 18, 2025 at 4:49 AM
is it stupid to ask for a boyfriend for christmas
love me kiss me hold me tell me i’ll be alright massage my head massage my neck kiss my nose pls someone fucking cuddle me
December 17, 2025 at 8:22 PM
love me kiss me hold me tell me i’ll be alright massage my head massage my neck kiss my nose pls someone fucking cuddle me
i hate the song “baby, it’s cold outside” cuz i hate that i’d melt if someone dedicated that song to me. just want somebody to want me enough to be like “ohhh.. but it’s cold so let’s stay together” like fuck u man don’t make me think that
December 15, 2025 at 9:46 PM
i hate the song “baby, it’s cold outside” cuz i hate that i’d melt if someone dedicated that song to me. just want somebody to want me enough to be like “ohhh.. but it’s cold so let’s stay together” like fuck u man don’t make me think that
eye twitches whenever my mom doesn’t see ai as a big deal
December 10, 2025 at 10:21 PM
eye twitches whenever my mom doesn’t see ai as a big deal
i feel so bad for not interacting with them but i genuinely feel like a bother…
December 8, 2025 at 3:46 AM
i feel so bad for not interacting with them but i genuinely feel like a bother…
day idfr i want a bf pls and ty
December 6, 2025 at 10:51 PM
day idfr i want a bf pls and ty
i miss having a kink partner fffffffffu
December 5, 2025 at 8:07 PM
i miss having a kink partner fffffffffu
blehhhh ugly feeling in my chest again
December 2, 2025 at 12:14 AM
blehhhh ugly feeling in my chest again
nvm i can because fuck you let me be happy
i can’t have one happy thing.
November 29, 2025 at 10:55 PM
nvm i can because fuck you let me be happy
i can’t have one happy thing.
November 29, 2025 at 3:22 PM
i can’t have one happy thing.
crying session of the day: ✔️
November 26, 2025 at 11:04 PM
crying session of the day: ✔️
no nnononono j don’t wanna worry anybody im not this i stupid for someone to worry about me no one can literally do anything
November 26, 2025 at 10:27 PM
no nnononono j don’t wanna worry anybody im not this i stupid for someone to worry about me no one can literally do anything
hate this hate this hate this
November 26, 2025 at 10:16 PM
hate this hate this hate this
ik i shouldn’t not eat but what’s the fucking point
November 26, 2025 at 10:08 PM
ik i shouldn’t not eat but what’s the fucking point
i have to be fine i have to be normal i have to be grateful i hand to not look pathetic i have to shut up
November 26, 2025 at 4:10 AM
i have to be fine i have to be normal i have to be grateful i hand to not look pathetic i have to shut up
i’m fine i’m fine im fine im fine
November 26, 2025 at 4:05 AM
i’m fine i’m fine im fine im fine