i was never really a company stan nor did i ever want to be but this smtown reminded me of how much time and love i've spent with and invested into a lot of their artists over the years, so i guess thank you smt for the love/hate relationship the past 18-19 years

when the mv for the new smtown song was playing for some reason i wanted to cry even more? the realization that i really grew up with smtown was such a weird feeling, and i actually felt like i relived each time i watched those mvs for the first time... music is really a weird thing

i remembered seeing a post saying that all the lightsticks except for shinee's were off for boa's cover of end of a day... and when I saw the shinee seating section on 4th floor being the only group of lights still on, i legit could not stop crying even after the song ended

the riize remake of hug both healed and hurt something within me and i'm not sure what but i now have an obsession with it. probably bc it reminded me of early tvxq days and sohee's airy high note felt so... cathartic? healing?

the smtr25 30 year tribute perf was the most impressive thing i've watched in a while -- the trainees were SO clean and the stage effects were so good, honestly props to them for doing so well on such a large stage with literally all their sunbaes watching too

mirotic live.... high priority bucket list item checked off ✅ pretty sure i cried at some point during that performance but the fact that i finally saw the remaining 2 members of tvxq + was part of a korean crowd for mirotic fanchants.. literally perfect

suju doing sorry sorry + black suit in those outfits really almost made me feel sorry (ha) for ever swerving out of the elf life... though it did feel like a full-circle moment considering they were the ones who really started it all

i'm not forgiving my boy for forgetting his vest on day 1.. he's lucky i was seeing 127 again the week after otherwise i would've probably raged... but the anger wouldn't have lasted long anyways bc how could i stay mad when he sounds like that

wayv is always so much fun to watch... xiaojun will never fail to cleanse my ears but what I would give to experience the kcon 2023 LA set again live 😭

i probably spent more time cackling at chii's doom during the dreamies' section but my goodness do i love watching 7dream... and watching the triple spin in WIWY with my own two eyes ohhhh my gosh that was a treat

my wishies.... ohhh my wishies i love you so much i'm so glad we got to see them this day esp with the S+++ tier styling eeee i can't wait for the day i get to see OT6

i'm so glad i got to see aespa much more closely this time compared to CCMAs, because i was already a little sad i couldn't go to their concert 😭 still don't get to see drama live but at least got whiplash and supernova so i can't complain

getting to witness boa perform only one live was the biggest bucket list item getting checked off -- that song is so special to me - my first solo dance cover song, the song that made me a doie stan...

suju performing a man in love in 2025 was not on my bingo sheet... the fact that I haven't seen them nor heard this song since 2009 is insane?? biggest throwback moment fr

starting with rising sun -- it took literally every fiber of my being to not burst into tears the moment homin appeared... literally all the emotions from being a cassie since 2008 really hit me all at once... pride, joy, anger, despair, you name it

leejeong in that varsity jacket aaaa i love it when my biases wear varsity jackets