I don't really know who I am anymore either, haha
thank you

Never push away those you love, no matter how much it hurts. They don't want to see you go. You are loved.

Last thing I want to say is, I know it's really hard to talk to people about your problems. I know it's hard to be vulnerable. To seek help for things that are slowly killing you and eating away at your heart. Please, trust those that you love, who care about you. They only want to help , not hurt.

I've been seeing a psychiatrist, I'm on medication, and still I feel broken as a person. I don't know if I'll ever find what I'm looking for, but I'm not going to sit here wasting away and continuing to sink until I do something I regret. I have a newfound desire to live, even if I've lost my way.

Starting today, I will be taking a period of inactivity on all my socials. Please, feel free to message me on telegram, or discord and I will get back to you where I can, but I've reached a point where my presence on social media has been deeply affecting me and it has to stop.

gotten out of control on me again. I need to discover how to heal on a spiritual level or I will continue to sink further and further and I'm afraid I'm heading down a dark path of no return. I'm tired of hurting myself and pushing away everyone who tries to help.