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⠀ and i knew my trust-issue always shut someone off. i’m so sorry, but i promise that you can leave me anytime, i won’t be mad. i knew i didn’t give people a reason to stay with me. i’m sorry.
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⠀ i just can’t allow myself to be loved. i just can’t allow myself to feel their sincerity. i just— i’m afraid i might get a knife on my back again.
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⠀ aside from my family, i always doubted people’s motivation— what they wanted from me, why they being nice to me, or what i have to return their favors.
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