我想要那种刚入坑时不在乎是谁在画、不在乎什么样的内容更流行、不在乎这个小圈子里各种各样的人际关系纠纷谁受欢迎谁又受排挤的纯粹而轻松的心情。然而一个坑呆久了不是对原作逐渐失去热情，就是真切体会到有人的地方就会有纷争，理想的纯粹心情不过是不太熟悉时的新手保护期。如果锻炼不出可以和这些抗衡的强大的精神，只能逃跑。比起对谁感到愧疚或辜负谁的期望，如今的心情更多是又一次逃避的无可奈何感

虽然也有“这个那个还没做过就毕业了不是很可惜吗”的想法……但要勉强自己的话，属于一种维持。我认为任何关系到了需要用“维持”来形容的话就不值得存续了。

In short: I won't be drawing len'en again for a long time. But the memories of these four years are precious for me, so I'll keep my accounts as a memorial.
If fate brings us together, we will meet again.

I'm sorry to hear this, but respect your choice. Coincidentally, I have always had similar thoughts... Anyway, I wish you a bright future, and I am really lucky to know you in this fandom😭🙏

thankuuuu😭😭🙏

okay thank u 😊