in jade light i'll find the future, with him watching over me

it truly is one of the best interactive media experiences i've had ever

with that there’s like 100 people i want to thank, but honestly if you are reading this and we’ve ever had a positive interaction, then you are probably among them. to you i want to say thanks, i am here today because of you. and with another small step, happy new year!

and before where all i could feel was worry i know feel happiness, sadness, anger and a slight headache. i can hear a tinnitus in my ears again, feel the hunger within and my mouth being dry. this is me. i am alive, not because i want to be but because i am.

now it no longer serves a purpose, and while i can slowly feel it trying to sneak in it no longer holds me. i am alive for that is all i am, and through that i express myself, create myself. emptiness fills the void were the thought had been and sets me free to feel me being me.

although i must say that the click i felt when it all came together was truly amazing

turns out all you have to do to become decent at something is just keep at it even when you feel like you make no progress at all

and now i got bags under my eyes, so much for beauty sleep ig

like wtf

and then i wake up at 12, having slept through like 10 alarms and am tired as fuck

but i go back to sleep for the last hour, girl needs her beauty sleep and all

like at this point i’m fully awake, i could topple like 2,5 roman empires at this point. i’m in the zone

i wake up at 7 a.m, an hour before i need to get up and go back to snooze for the last hour

shit sucks but ig i’ll just have to accept it