anyways, my point is, I’m healing and I know I’m going to be better for all of this that’s happened. (sorry for posting this at literally 7AM, I’m just thinking)

it’s sad to watch someone you once considered family sit, whisper, and look at you with a new group of friends. (but then practically run from you every time you were in the same vicinity lol. as if I would ruin her con experiences let alone speak to her.)

and I didn’t realize how much someone only seeing maybe 50% of a story and then never really allowing room for me to speak on my experiences weighed on me until it was over. and when I did actually get to speak, I was resented and treated poorly.

the exchange of “I just wanna know if you remember this” to his cackle and losing his shit bc he was like wait this is you??? to him making sure he showed me on his twitter that I was his most searched account remains the wildest 5 minutes of my life

happy birthday, sam!!!!! ❤️❤️

the goal is to do a retake today, my messed up bangs are bothering me 😭😭😭

it’s so surreal 😭😭😭