One set will be!

But the other is a secret 🤭

Sure thing! I will say so far - very disturbing! Enjoying it bizarrely though 🤔

It possibly could - but the waitlist for a therapist on healthcare is years and I can’t really afford a private one 😩

I did go to therapy yeeeears ago and I had a really bad experience so I’m pretty reluctant to go back 😔

Surprisingly -

I’m not looking for sympathy or whatever.

I just had to get this out of my head somewhere.

His words will live rent free forever in my head and I’m sure if he ever knew this he’d be so fucking happy with himself.

I wish I couldn’t give him the satisfaction of knowing he’s completely fucked me up but I fucking surrender.
🏳️

The saddest part is, he’s only amplified thoughts I already had about myself.

In doing so, I know this will never go away.

Silencing this shit was already hard enough, but he’s just egged it on, given it a whole new fucking army to wage war within my brain and I feel so fucking hopeless.

It’s not that I’m “heartbroken”. I have zero feelings toward him as a person.

It’s what he’s done to me. He’s ruined the shreds of self confidence I was working so fucking hard to rebuild.

I’m so fucking upset knowing he’s been able to affect me like this because I have no idea how to fix it.

I think I have to admit to myself that my ex has won.
I don’t even know if it was his end goal but he’s actually broken me as a person.
The effects of what he said to me have literally incinerated my mental health.

Ayo I’m funny as fuck 🥺

I still definitely don’t like it but nowhere near as nervous as I used to be!