Holden
@holdenfalsch.bsky.social
My less actionable thoughts go here so as not pollute my X/Twitter
I can't tell if the reason Holden Falsch looks foreign to me is because burnout or a deeper thing. I'm probably okayish
December 15, 2025 at 10:56 PM
I can't tell if the reason Holden Falsch looks foreign to me is because burnout or a deeper thing. I'm probably okayish
There's nothing like not recognizing my own thoughts and feeling. Having them clouded behind years of pretending and suppression. This is like a archeological dig, I wonder what I'm gonna find
December 14, 2025 at 7:33 PM
There's nothing like not recognizing my own thoughts and feeling. Having them clouded behind years of pretending and suppression. This is like a archeological dig, I wonder what I'm gonna find
I just suffered a lot of anxiety while reading a manga. I can't pin specifically the reason for the anxiety. It just kept getting worse and worse until the last couple of pages. Was I getting into the story? Was I cheering for an outcome? Was I sympathizing with one of the characters? I don't know
December 14, 2025 at 7:32 PM
I just suffered a lot of anxiety while reading a manga. I can't pin specifically the reason for the anxiety. It just kept getting worse and worse until the last couple of pages. Was I getting into the story? Was I cheering for an outcome? Was I sympathizing with one of the characters? I don't know
Please brain, we got better, don't go back down the same road we just got off. We can beat the brain worms if we be better than we were.
December 8, 2025 at 8:14 AM
Please brain, we got better, don't go back down the same road we just got off. We can beat the brain worms if we be better than we were.
I nearly forgot where I was when I hit the discover tab. Whew
December 8, 2025 at 7:53 AM
I nearly forgot where I was when I hit the discover tab. Whew
Oh shit, it's happening again. The exact same trap I'm dumbly walking into, that I have walked into before and struggled with for literal years. Its like I'm lacking object permeance. I think I can pull myself out it. But I'm praying for myself to remember the stairs
December 8, 2025 at 5:20 AM
Oh shit, it's happening again. The exact same trap I'm dumbly walking into, that I have walked into before and struggled with for literal years. Its like I'm lacking object permeance. I think I can pull myself out it. But I'm praying for myself to remember the stairs
I've become aware that I'm terribly lacking in specific direction for certain aspects of my streamer identity especially on the twitch part. I feel like since I'm not especially interesting, I don't need to think about it. That's dumb, popularity doesn't happen all at once. Currently brainstorming
December 7, 2025 at 12:19 AM
I've become aware that I'm terribly lacking in specific direction for certain aspects of my streamer identity especially on the twitch part. I feel like since I'm not especially interesting, I don't need to think about it. That's dumb, popularity doesn't happen all at once. Currently brainstorming
This is blowing my mind
December 1, 2025 at 7:51 PM
This is blowing my mind
I'm beginning to believe that buying into the lottery wouldn't be the biggest mistake I could make
November 8, 2025 at 7:00 AM
I'm beginning to believe that buying into the lottery wouldn't be the biggest mistake I could make
Every time I try to be creative it feels like my brain is limiting me. WHY CAN'T I GET OUT OF MY OWN WAY!! I JUST WANT TO DO THESE THINGS THAT I LOVE AND TO ALSO SHARE THEM!! WHY DO I SABOTAGE MYSELF LIKE THIS!?!??!???
November 8, 2025 at 6:51 AM
Every time I try to be creative it feels like my brain is limiting me. WHY CAN'T I GET OUT OF MY OWN WAY!! I JUST WANT TO DO THESE THINGS THAT I LOVE AND TO ALSO SHARE THEM!! WHY DO I SABOTAGE MYSELF LIKE THIS!?!??!???
Day 2 of doing an all-nighter for my job and I feel like I've spent like half my day here. I gotta figure out how to entertain myself or I'm gonna lose my mind
October 20, 2025 at 4:41 AM
Day 2 of doing an all-nighter for my job and I feel like I've spent like half my day here. I gotta figure out how to entertain myself or I'm gonna lose my mind
This job with it stability(nukes my weekend nights) might allow me to make a stream schedule. I'm super plussed about it
October 15, 2025 at 11:10 PM
This job with it stability(nukes my weekend nights) might allow me to make a stream schedule. I'm super plussed about it
Can't wait to change my life with this job that'll probably disrupt my entire schedule but I bet every dollar I got I'll love it
October 8, 2025 at 11:20 PM
Can't wait to change my life with this job that'll probably disrupt my entire schedule but I bet every dollar I got I'll love it
Reconciling whats going on in my life and trying to stream is difficult. I wish I could be over this hump quicker, so I can go back to being goofy streamer dood
September 27, 2025 at 4:58 PM
Reconciling whats going on in my life and trying to stream is difficult. I wish I could be over this hump quicker, so I can go back to being goofy streamer dood
Currently feeling invisible despite being surrounded by people
September 17, 2025 at 10:26 PM
Currently feeling invisible despite being surrounded by people
I occasionally think I'm the last sane person in the world. Looking at people saying some unhinged unhealthy things. Its such a weird thing to think.
August 30, 2025 at 5:05 AM
I occasionally think I'm the last sane person in the world. Looking at people saying some unhinged unhealthy things. Its such a weird thing to think.
Paranoia is a hell of a drug
August 23, 2025 at 2:08 PM
Paranoia is a hell of a drug
Sometimes I wish people would interact with me when they have an issue with the circles I run in. I don't get some of the tribalism people have
August 22, 2025 at 4:10 AM
Sometimes I wish people would interact with me when they have an issue with the circles I run in. I don't get some of the tribalism people have
>design image for a post chain
>decidedly ignore all the hashtag words because it can't be that important
>ten minutes later actually look at them
What the heck are these words?
>decidedly ignore all the hashtag words because it can't be that important
>ten minutes later actually look at them
What the heck are these words?
August 11, 2025 at 4:57 AM
>design image for a post chain
>decidedly ignore all the hashtag words because it can't be that important
>ten minutes later actually look at them
What the heck are these words?
>decidedly ignore all the hashtag words because it can't be that important
>ten minutes later actually look at them
What the heck are these words?
August 11, 2025 at 4:36 AM
I tried to transcribe the text I written in a notebook onto a tablet so I can continue the story there. Alas my energy wants to be printed on paper
Currently writing a short story based on a thought I had. It's kinda depressing. Well, I think it's interesting. Don't have to write a best seller. Just to write something interesting
July 26, 2025 at 1:50 AM
I tried to transcribe the text I written in a notebook onto a tablet so I can continue the story there. Alas my energy wants to be printed on paper
New profile header. Just in a creative mode right now
July 25, 2025 at 11:12 PM
New profile header. Just in a creative mode right now
Currently writing a short story based on a thought I had. It's kinda depressing. Well, I think it's interesting. Don't have to write a best seller. Just to write something interesting
July 25, 2025 at 10:51 PM
Currently writing a short story based on a thought I had. It's kinda depressing. Well, I think it's interesting. Don't have to write a best seller. Just to write something interesting
Currently on a mission to find a cheese wedge hat for a boss of mine because I like them way more than other bosses I have. Having to cross the border for this
July 25, 2025 at 5:25 PM
Currently on a mission to find a cheese wedge hat for a boss of mine because I like them way more than other bosses I have. Having to cross the border for this