Night crying. nothing new but now with hyper fixation on one song

How hard and sad it is to realize that most of the problems in the family are because of me. 😫😭

Another day of my useless existence

A star shines brightest just before it explodes …

Am I okay? I'M NOT OKAY! A few minutes ago I was standing in the bathroom under the shower and crying. Bad, horrible thoughts are eating away at me and these crying sessions becoming more and more frequent. BUT NOW I'M EATING DELICIOUS FOOD AND WATCHING VTUBER TO FEEL AT LEAST A LITTLE HAPPY

Wake up. Mentally suffer and hate yourself for everything. Go get some cake to somehow save yourself. Turn on songs from “alien stage” and cry. It's a fucking start and it's not even the middle of the day yet.

It's very likely that the foundation of my mental state has cracked again. Although, it's probably a whole network of cracks. New rituals, new problems, a significant increase in old mental problems. It's sad. In any case, I'm even crazier now and I can use this as a DM in my role-playing games

Among many, yet nowhere…

The morning started hard. I woke up feeling like crying. After breakfast, my brain got the better of me and I cried. I try to distract myself with things. I went to the store, I do things at home just to shut my brain off, but something doesn't work. I hate myself. Oh, my eyes are wet again 😞😫😭

I am a mistake. I am one of the biggest mistakes that exists. A failure in my career. A failure in the eyes of my parents. A failure in relationships and friendships. A failure in my hobbies (as a DM in role-playing games, as a player in board games and online games).

How emotionally and mentally devastated are you? - Yesterday I barely held on but cried in the bathroom. Today I'm listening to sad songs on repeat.

How are you feeling? - I have art that describes everything. (MitsuTan artist)