Anyhow, that's my 2025. I'm hoping I can get back into learning art and get comfortable with myself and bluesky to share. Unsure if it's the end of the year or me seeking resolutions, but I feel motivated and I'm hoping the best for 2026. If you made it this far, thanks for reading. [6/6]

Learning art is hard and I don't know how long it will take to get good enough to share, but I decided I'd rather suffer through this than boredom and creative emptiness. I still need to get off my ass and do my art reps, though. [5/6]

I did enjoy making workflows in ComfyUI, though. It felt vaguely like playing Factorio and it tickled the part of my brain that liked complex flows and managing spaghetti belts, but it wasn't what I wanted to do creatively. [4/6]

Personally, I couldn't call myself an artist by doing this and I don't know how AI prompters feel like they can. Repeatedly hitting "generate" with different prompts and seeds felt more like rolling on a really bad gacha, at best. At its worst, this felt dull and braindead. [3/6]

The "process" was me using somebody else's checkpoint and somebody else's lora, both trained on who knows how many artists likely without their consent, generating images that didn't feel like they belonged to me. My only role in this was typing keywords and hitting "generate" in ComfyUI. [2/6]

Household chores and cleaning, and trying to get myself back to learning art. One of the unexpected benefits of all the drama keeping me off reddit and social media is all the spare time I suddenly have to fill.

And if they decide it's time to stop, be grateful for the memories and the experiences and don't let them be remembered just by the negatives. It may not have ended the way you wanted, but it doesn't mean it wasn't real. If your oshi made you smile, you should hold it dear because it mattered.

Don't worry about the things you don't control or have no clear knowledge of. What goes on between your oshi and management is between them. Just give them the support they need, especially if they have dreams they want to achieve. Support and cherish them and let them know you're on their side.

We need to remember that we as fans don't have a complete picture of what goes on BTS. A lot of the current fire is emotional and being amplified by uncertainty, fear, and hearsay that keeps feeding on itself. It helps to take a step back and not let yourself fall into the doom spiral.

NO MORI MY SKULL-ooh, I make a good rattling noise.

All the damn time.

Na...blue?