🍏{ beems }🍎
@hibeems.bsky.social
♀️ ❇ 29 ❇ audhd
🌌🪅🫧🌻 ❇ 🇲🇽 ❇ 🍃😶🌫️🫰 ❇ ♏ ❇ INFP
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Begging Caleb Love and Deepspace for just one chance !!!!! 😭💧🥺😢😢🫶😢🙏
😝🎂🍎
basically a vent spot with an overdose of thirsting for a fictional gemini man, so I don't recommend following lmao
🌌🪅🫧🌻 ❇ 🇲🇽 ❇ 🍃😶🌫️🫰 ❇ ♏ ❇ INFP
⚜️
Begging Caleb Love and Deepspace for just one chance !!!!! 😭💧🥺😢😢🫶😢🙏
😝🎂🍎
basically a vent spot with an overdose of thirsting for a fictional gemini man, so I don't recommend following lmao
how am I supposed to rewatch Grey's (for the 6th (7th?) time) while I paint if bro's taking up my entire couch 😭 Grey's puts me in this weird headspace *perfect* for art man, I need my shitty show and i need the vibes to be right 😭 it's a delicate task, healing my pruned pathways; I need control !!!
December 7, 2025 at 9:14 AM
how am I supposed to rewatch Grey's (for the 6th (7th?) time) while I paint if bro's taking up my entire couch 😭 Grey's puts me in this weird headspace *perfect* for art man, I need my shitty show and i need the vibes to be right 😭 it's a delicate task, healing my pruned pathways; I need control !!!
some nights i rue introducing the little fucker to my beloved mj
December 7, 2025 at 9:06 AM
some nights i rue introducing the little fucker to my beloved mj
So I'm finally getting back into art (at odd hours bc I have no privacy in this house) and my brother ruins my painting plans for the next 10 hours because he *wanted* to get too high to move off my couch (without asking if it was okay to overstay his welcome in my space tonight 💀) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
December 7, 2025 at 9:05 AM
So I'm finally getting back into art (at odd hours bc I have no privacy in this house) and my brother ruins my painting plans for the next 10 hours because he *wanted* to get too high to move off my couch (without asking if it was okay to overstay his welcome in my space tonight 💀) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
lol. I wonder whether this is seasonal depression brought on by the tule fog, depression as a medication side-effect, PMDD depression, or a PTSD flare-up 💀
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
December 3, 2025 at 4:33 PM
lol. I wonder whether this is seasonal depression brought on by the tule fog, depression as a medication side-effect, PMDD depression, or a PTSD flare-up 💀
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
Regardless, this is one of the worst *lows* i have ever felt. Like. Genuinely want to be put out of my misery if it means i don't have to feel!!
I have to update my age on all my fuckass profiles 😭 hate this for me 🥺
November 19, 2025 at 7:17 AM
I have to update my age on all my fuckass profiles 😭 hate this for me 🥺
I'm all self-conscious about my voice now oh my fucking goddddddd i'm gonna tweak out instead of sleeping now 😭😭😭😭😭😭
October 21, 2025 at 6:15 AM
I'm all self-conscious about my voice now oh my fucking goddddddd i'm gonna tweak out instead of sleeping now 😭😭😭😭😭😭
oh my god I just realized I was being teased for the way I speak that one time. oh man, why would my brain lob that memory at me (out of all of them??) with cursed hindsight? 😭
October 21, 2025 at 6:14 AM
oh my god I just realized I was being teased for the way I speak that one time. oh man, why would my brain lob that memory at me (out of all of them??) with cursed hindsight? 😭
Ykw though? Fuck it. If the ⬛ and the CT scan didn't find any hemorrhaging then I'm not dying (for the foreseeable future). I'm just unlucky as hell.
September 13, 2025 at 9:47 AM
Ykw though? Fuck it. If the ⬛ and the CT scan didn't find any hemorrhaging then I'm not dying (for the foreseeable future). I'm just unlucky as hell.
The only useful discovery I made today with these labs is that I either have ⬛ or my fuckass ⬛ simply likes to kick back and lean on my lower intestines 😭
...holy fuck hang on. I may be on to something here. The ultra-invasive ⬛ may have been worth it after all.
...holy fuck hang on. I may be on to something here. The ultra-invasive ⬛ may have been worth it after all.
September 13, 2025 at 9:43 AM
The only useful discovery I made today with these labs is that I either have ⬛ or my fuckass ⬛ simply likes to kick back and lean on my lower intestines 😭
...holy fuck hang on. I may be on to something here. The ultra-invasive ⬛ may have been worth it after all.
...holy fuck hang on. I may be on to something here. The ultra-invasive ⬛ may have been worth it after all.
I think my medical anxiety may have affected my treatment today.. infection was assumed because of borderline high temp, rapid heart rate, and elevated wbc. But stress can explain 2/3 of those. And the "fever" is probably because I took a fucking bus to get to the hospital in the summer and it's hot
September 13, 2025 at 9:43 AM
I think my medical anxiety may have affected my treatment today.. infection was assumed because of borderline high temp, rapid heart rate, and elevated wbc. But stress can explain 2/3 of those. And the "fever" is probably because I took a fucking bus to get to the hospital in the summer and it's hot
Went through all that fresh hell for what ?? .. to be told to take Tylenol and go back to the witch that sent me to them in the first place?? Literally perish. Today was fucking awful. staff was lovely. but damn they don't mind maiming you to draw blood/put in a second (pointless) central line lmfao
September 13, 2025 at 9:04 AM
Went through all that fresh hell for what ?? .. to be told to take Tylenol and go back to the witch that sent me to them in the first place?? Literally perish. Today was fucking awful. staff was lovely. but damn they don't mind maiming you to draw blood/put in a second (pointless) central line lmfao
I mean it might still be a misdiagnosis bc everything came back """fine/normal""" but to figure that out for sure I'd need a laparoscopic procedure and ion want one lol... They still recommend seeing a gyno.. just let me die bruh, i hate that plastic thing. Hurts bad, bad stretch, miserable feeling
September 13, 2025 at 6:13 AM
I mean it might still be a misdiagnosis bc everything came back """fine/normal""" but to figure that out for sure I'd need a laparoscopic procedure and ion want one lol... They still recommend seeing a gyno.. just let me die bruh, i hate that plastic thing. Hurts bad, bad stretch, miserable feeling
Blood COLD !!!!!!!
September 13, 2025 at 2:02 AM
Blood COLD !!!!!!!
should I post a hopital selfie on my ig story later to scare the people I don't talk to anymore... haven't posted there since covid days... It would be kinda funny wouldn't it...?
September 12, 2025 at 9:02 PM
should I post a hopital selfie on my ig story later to scare the people I don't talk to anymore... haven't posted there since covid days... It would be kinda funny wouldn't it...?
Doctor with a whole ass medical degree really told an 18 year old "if you don't plan on using it any time soon, you can just let that organ rot. problem for future you haha" like lmao??
September 9, 2025 at 4:06 PM
Doctor with a whole ass medical degree really told an 18 year old "if you don't plan on using it any time soon, you can just let that organ rot. problem for future you haha" like lmao??
Thirteen days in 😁 totally don't care that I'm getting nauseous and dizzy over this. I almost threw up and fainted in my bathroom just now. What the fuck 💀
September 7, 2025 at 11:38 PM
Thirteen days in 😁 totally don't care that I'm getting nauseous and dizzy over this. I almost threw up and fainted in my bathroom just now. What the fuck 💀
IT'S BEEN TEN DAYS. LEAVE ME THE FAWK ALONE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD 😭😫
September 4, 2025 at 3:22 PM
IT'S BEEN TEN DAYS. LEAVE ME THE FAWK ALONE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD 😭😫
Oh Dear God. Oh no nonono. Oh God oh fuck. I haven't even gotten to work yet, you fuckass flesh prison!!! PLEASE have mercy!!!!!
September 4, 2025 at 3:16 PM
Oh Dear God. Oh no nonono. Oh God oh fuck. I haven't even gotten to work yet, you fuckass flesh prison!!! PLEASE have mercy!!!!!
Need to sleep but can't stop laughing at this fuckass image
September 4, 2025 at 8:27 AM
Need to sleep but can't stop laughing at this fuckass image
I have no one to talk to about this so the void gets it 🌚 Aging visibly scares the fucking shit out of me! Don't even have anything against wrinkles/grey hair/shit like that. I think it's the whole. Like. It's a built-in excuse. If I look younger than I am, people don't question my weirdness as much
September 4, 2025 at 7:52 AM
I have no one to talk to about this so the void gets it 🌚 Aging visibly scares the fucking shit out of me! Don't even have anything against wrinkles/grey hair/shit like that. I think it's the whole. Like. It's a built-in excuse. If I look younger than I am, people don't question my weirdness as much
dear fucking god I had hoped the first two were flukes. Random one-offs. But a third one. jesus fucking christ. i can't be sprouting greys already. I still get confused for a high schooler. what the hell 😭
September 4, 2025 at 7:40 AM
dear fucking god I had hoped the first two were flukes. Random one-offs. But a third one. jesus fucking christ. i can't be sprouting greys already. I still get confused for a high schooler. what the hell 😭
just realized something about myself. don't think i am recovering from this one lmfao. being audhd is a special hell 💀
August 30, 2025 at 3:26 PM
just realized something about myself. don't think i am recovering from this one lmfao. being audhd is a special hell 💀
I make all my OCs neurodivergent in my image and it asked me if I googled autism for thirty seconds as research before writing my bot 💀 fuck offfffff 😭😭😭
August 23, 2025 at 10:08 AM
I make all my OCs neurodivergent in my image and it asked me if I googled autism for thirty seconds as research before writing my bot 💀 fuck offfffff 😭😭😭