Lol maybe I just gotta dig my hole and read a book or something...
What the fuck do I do?
Maybe just pretend all this shit isn't happening till I'm mature enough to handle it...

My family tells me to stop thinking about these things and live my life...
But I am so used to thinking about these things that its second nature to me...

In a way this good because I am actually processing politics more intensely for the first time in a while but still I can't handle it...
I dont know what to do with it other than get angry.

#politics

I have this problem that I was all into things before I hanged out at another house for 10 days and now im disoriented
Before I was in the middle of boosting neuroplasticity with teas
I got all into my projects and programming and music and minecraft
Since then I have been getting angry at YouTube.

It would be nice if I had more money...
Just trying to get my finances and schedule worked out...

Would kinda be interested in traveling to countries that I am interested in doing business in or meeting people...

I know they are not gonna want to let me leave because I can do more to hurt the united states when im not being directly monitored and controlled by the united states and corporations but the more I learn the more I feel like theres no future here unless I sell out ...

At different points I've decided to stay in the united states... But since then I've learned more and more... I have relationships here now but im not sure it matters...
Mexico is kinda like the united states...
I might just leave in a few years and be a tankie...

The united states is so full of shit unless you are in the 1% and i am pretty tired of it.
Even if i thought I could be in the 1% why shouldn't I leave anyways?
I dont really agree with what's going on. And I dont really want to share the country with backstabbers...

Do you think this could really happen any time in the next 30 years and is there anything I can do to help? :)

what i prob really want to do is host all my own content and connect it to protocols like activitybub on the fediverse...

Ive also been trying to build up a contacts list for a while now...

#networking

I went to threads because I tried transfering my followers from Twitter/X to here on Bluesky but found that it seems not too many people use Bluesky...

This is after comming from the fediverse...
I'm not really sure what to do because I need a high volume/traffic platform but I know ultimately

I was just told Weibo is a toilet...

I signed up for threads...
green.holden

And I just scanned my X account to see who's on Bluesky and only 15 people have showed up...
That's a problem...
Makes me realize I need Weibo even more...
And to learn chinese/mandarin...

I want the account. 🥺