Ah you're welcome. Every time I've spoken to you, I'm amazed at how well spoken and clever you are :)

loving the purple hair, Tara! <3

That would require me to sit still, Dusty.

Can I say how cool this is? :)

I don't expect any comments on this. It's me just trying to express the stuff in my brain. You know where to find me if you need to reach out.

Last week, I got to see my friends and it was good to be in their presence again and this week...I'm all alone again. Tomorrow will be hard, back to work, back to school...house of quiet and constant reminders that I've never been more alone in my life.

I dislike it greatly.

I feel guilty dumping this on people during a time when everyone is supposed to be happy and the one person I usually talk to about this kind of stuff also finds this time of year hard.

So the never-ending crushing loneliness I feel on a general basis, is well....increased.

Part of my family is missing and I understand that they don't want me as part of the life anymore. I get this. But the pain never goes away and every time I look at their step brother, my youngest...I think of how much better it would be with them here.

All the traditions they miss.

Miss you ❤️