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I'll just probably go back to DCS and EFT whilst trying not to murder the people I play with regularly and just window shopping after these rounds of commissions. Just, do one thing okay? Don't come near me. Avoid me, save yourself that hassle.

What's my skills? Honestly just sitting there and listening to everyone else's problems whilst I leave mine buried under medication and break down in bed sometimes. My lifes not that bad but people, not individuals, don't pay attention to those that have nothing going for them.

"Just play games with your VR" - I can't. The IPD is way too narrow for anything to be play for a significant amount of time and I'm not a social butterfly to do things like VRC or anything like that. It's been sitting still for almost a solid year before I dusted it off last night. And its outdated

All I honestly wanted was a damn reason to use my VR headset now. ViRe does work but the capture is basic at best. Any other option costs way above my spending amount and I'm not too keen on subscribing to a program that I'll probably use a few times, get mad at and stop using ever again.

It has brought many of my characters and kinks to life but age old thing of being proud of doing something with your own hands is always better, yeah that's never going to happen for me. There's plenty of decent artists out there that can do what I can't, just means I'll have to go broke to get it

Since then I never dipped my toes into any art apart from cringe writing and even then I didn't do much of it because the people I showed it to didn't care because there wasn't a massive dick or pussy in their faces to fawn over. After that, I just sunk money into commissions, hoping that would help

Power to those who can actually do it effectively. I'm just going to be an outlier looking at the renders the artist did and know, deep down in myself, that I am not worthy enough to even mess around with them. Whinge over, go back to your regular porn activities.

I feel like I just don't have the patience to create something good and just wanted to cheap my way out of it. I just don't want those models to go to waste hence is why I tried to do at least something with them. Everything else just blows out my wallet more than it already is currently.

Ill throw my turian into the ring. Your call on what you do with him!

I'd be better off just sticking in my lane and not doing anything else. People don't care, but individuals do. Its always going to be like that because I have nothing to offer, apparently money and being something to vent to isn't enough anymore. But it works for others so idk

So uh, yeah. Didn't end up eating cake. Spent the evening with family instead. Still, felt more like I was there for no reason as there was no celebration. Ah well, it is what it is.