Wahhh thank you so much ;_; I really enjoy getting a glimpse into his mind, because the way he sees and navigates the world is honestly so beautiful and intimate. I sound like Solem, but I guess that's to say I see why they are so crazy about him LMAO.

I miss them. I hope they forget about me.

Early anim were the only anim that Solem addressed and interacted with with some hint of normalcy, so their surviving records all corroborating "sheep" definitely had an impact on modern day Illuminism AND many unaffiliated unregistered community's beliefs.

Really, Solem & Edax take on the form of whatever the individual anim believes (typically of the family bovidae but not exclusively) it just so happens that sheep are most popular in public consciousness due to the experiences of early anim being passed down.

Needless to say, as soon as I saw it I identified heavily with it.

I also like the double meaning of refined being "something elegant" because trans anim are held in high regard since Solem is trans AND well...it's a big deal!! You are Solem's art and now you're changing that art. Your entire transition is a collab with them!

Obviously these terms would have been popularized by Illuminists like most anim terms- but I like refined as opposed to revised bc Illuminists wouldn't interpret transness as Solem making a mistake that's in need of fixing, they see it as touching up an old piece to bring it to curent standards.

I guess I'm just surprised because that's a new low even for him. He's always been willing to hear my mom out so to reject her too signals to me that he's seriously done with us. Guess we'll see as my birthday gets closer.

His birthday was on the 8th and I still texted him. It was the first time we'd said a word to each other since September. I was the bigger person and he's still acting weird and taking it out on my mom now(?). I don't know why else he'd be so dismissive.

YEAGH, I would have been happy if it was one of those chibi sitting dolls with the simplified bodies and bigger heads, modeled more after how Mortis draws him chibi (like the pin!) The semi-realistic proportions don't appeal to me for a humanoid plush 😭 That's scary...I want them to be thingy.

I got the sauce-

The pins(?) are soooo cute. I love when Mortis draws them as thingies. I think the big thing could be a mouse pad? Which I will happily take. I could use another one.

The dedan plushie will probably be a skip for me, I wish the proportions were more chibi and compact tbh LMAO.

My characters have a tangible effect on me (and sometimes others), I observe them, I watch them grow and react to change- having to lie and reassure everyone that I KNOW they aren't ACTUALLY real feels more delusional than the alternative.

What's actually happening is that due to trauma, the soul develops in a disordered way and the embers that would typically come together to form one healthy soul stay separated and eventually ignite on their own before the anim is around 10 years old.

Yes, I would too. I love her and her design rules too much to not give her anything fun...

You and me both!