It was a Sony Walkman NW-A55. I’m a big fan. Easily my favorite Mp3 player I’ve used so far. They don’t make that model anymore, and that one apparently has issues with the charging port shitting out. The newer versions seem to use just standard USB-C.

Maybe I just need to be okay with having needs, because at this point pretending like I can just forgo my needs forever if necessary is going to break me

I know none of this is forever, and I’ll get through it, but I also know a lot of people I care about are also really going through it, and I wish I could be there for them and be more for them, but I feel like i’m running on empty.

just too much shit happening at the same time and I feel such an immense amount of pressure, and it’s really getting to me. I’ve been keeping it together relatively well, but right now I kind of just want to cry and to just hear someone say it’s okay if I need to fall apart for a little bit.

idk. doesn’t feel like an emergency, but it feels like it’s going to be a rough December from where I stand

There’s definitely artists before them who felt sort of adjacent to what they’d end up doing, but there’s just so much energy, creativity, and vision to what they ended up doing.