It's a complicated feeling day I guess but I had been putting off doing that and I can check it off now

So I think "they probably won't notice I'm gone, which is fine. They didn't notice when I talked to them," which feels mean

But another small part of me is angry that I held those friendships in high regard and put time and effort into them, and I was usually the first person to text or reach out. Some friendships are like that, but for me, I'm usually always the one doing it and it hurts and I'm tired

But part of me is trying to process it in the sense that nobody did anything wrong, things just come to an end.

Another part of me, the people pleaser part, would've rather just hung around until they deleted me cause I know how I'll respond (I won't)

Well, except one person, but they know what they did.

thank you, these absolutely brought a smile to my face ❤️

That was supposed to be of, but like very little matters rn

Basically, the illness is illnessing again

My workplace got me a lovely little sorry for your loss cat themed package. I cried again this morning, happy tears, but I'm also grateful for the understanding.

I have been crying so hard I have a migraine. I knew it was coming, but it doesn't make it easier

And I needed them, it's been years since I got new ones, so I couldn't just leave but god