So please know, you are not alone. I am so so so sorry for your loss

I was driving yesterday on lunch and had on XM 90's on 9 in the car. Boyz II Men "It's So Hard To Say Goodbye to Yesterday" came on. I'm 2 weeks out from the first anniversary of my brother's very unexpected passing. I was ugly crying while driving and couldn't change the station

I don't know if I'm ready

I'm too old for that. I got into too much trouble in my teens answering that in AOL chat rooms...