As a child, the feeling of happiness quickly fled as I heard my father’s heavy steps. My whole body would become unconsciously tense like a wet towel left outside on a winters day. My mind analyzing the speed, sound, and creaking to decide if I need to protect myself or not. #mentalhealth #journal

I wonder how my parents treated me when I couldn’t sleep? I wonder if they did research on how to be a better parent. I wonder what I thought about them as a two year old. #mentalhealth #healing #journaling

I feel like I am carrying generations of trauma and bad habits on my shoulders and trying not to let a drop spill over.