I have achieved hole...... From zero prep to all of my xl slink in under 10minutes Is not something I thought would happen after a couple months away from toying......

My gender today is the black grease that machinery is lubricated with, but like decades old so it's grown crusty and ineffective with age

My brain smoothes. It is enough

I need another drink. A sleeping nightmare is better than a waking one, it's over faster at least.

Ah my head, my head..... It swims and I drown. I know the truth of it but I can't face nor prove it. My gut screams yet I sit still. If the truth is not as I fear then I am a fool, a happy fool I'd be. If what I believe is true...... I'll take the long cell for what I do, that or a long nap. Rue me.

🎶That's me in the corner, that's me mixing drink and drugs because the vile things in my head won't let me sleep and being awake is a living nightmare of distrust and fear, trying to keep a hold on it, but I don't know if I can do it.... Oh no I've said too much, I haven't said enough 🎶