just make it final
One more day, I'd tell myself
Just go to sleep tonight we'll make it one day
It took nearly thirty years to allow myself to see the truth about the truth
I thank that version of me every day for being terrible at keeping up the “cleaning”
And allowing me one more day
🧵end

As I got older those changed
It felt less like I was clearing away the bad and more like I was denying reality
That's when my thoughts changed to washing my brain with lead
Too scared to lead an opposition, too scared to leave
Feeling as if any option was akin to death so why not…
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**One More**
Growing up
I was taught that brainwashing was a good thing
To follow the word of God you need a clean brain that isn't defiled by Satan's world
I used to imagine my brain in a basin with soap and water
Washing away the disgusting things of the world outside their “spiritual refuge”
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One of the updates previously disabled the drivers for both my audio and camera. I downloaded several different drivers off of websites and still couldn’t get it to work. I then downloaded CCleaner & did their professional version that has a driver updater on it which completely fixed the issue.

I could really use one of those.