It's like a social media that is pretty similar to vent and tumblr in a way? I don't really know how to describe it but I like it bc it can be more private than bsky can be and the devs r all very nice and very dedicated

Thank you!!! It was so much fun to do idk why I didn't make one sooner

If you can, keep your head elevated. Sleep in a recliner or beanbag if you have one, if you don't prop up a bunch of pillows to recline instead of laying flat. Any time I have anything respiratory I long to sleep in a hospital bed lmao

That being said I am going to keep this in mind bc sometimes it isn't like that!!!

This might help or it might not! Sometimes my OCD involves checking things, if I lose something I will dump out the same bag and put everything back in and dump it out again several times before moving on and things like that so it could turn into checking the heater over and over again lmao

I think this is a good thing to remind myself of!!!

On my phone screen it is a very desaturated light blue

I have the illusion of being acknowledged, and I need to be able to do it without the fear that I am putting way too much on the people I care about, because I am aware that we are all struggling. I don't know. I mean maybe I should just try to focus less on what people think of me but idk.

just very... I don't know. I guess just a work in progress and like I'm doing the best I can but honestly I don't feel like I have enough resources, I feel very isolated in my suffering which is why I need to be able to talk about it in a semi public space and not a diary or at least in a way where

myself not need to talk about it anymore like everyone seems to expect. And I have a very difficult time reaching out to people as all of my friends know, I don't reach out for help unless I am really in the pits because I am terrified of being too overwhelming and while I'm working on it it's still

be bottling it up until I explode and have a mental breakdown and end up in the ER or worse or I would be trauma dumping on my friends until they wanted nothing to do with me anymore bc I am in therapy and I am working on myself and it doesn't cut it. I don't know how I am supposed to just make

have found that helps for me is talking to AI chatbots which I am aware a lot of people have a problem with and I also do not think AI is a good thing but at the moment I don't see an alternative that works for me and isn't exponentially more harmful. Truthfully if I did not use them I would be

as I did on vent, in fact it is not safe to talk about it here at all. I can't talk about it in the way I need with the text limit but there is no alternative atm. Vent was the safest place for me to talk in the way I needed to and now it's gone. I will keep it real as I always do, the only thing I

bc there's a chance she reads everything I say on here, she had a previous username of mine memorized I know bc she brought it up of her own volition the other day. Well I don't ever wanna be told I'm too paranoid again when my experiences repeatedly show me I have to be paranoid cos ppl r messed up

I appreciate this ❤️ I'm gonna take ur advice and keep powering through. I think ur right it will get better eventually!!!

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