What made me let go was an argument with a former trainee who tried to infer that FF7 House was my fault, and it got to me. It's not my fault, but that incident really underlined just how raw I was, and I don't want others to be able to hurt me so easily

I made FF7 my entire personality at the end of high school and the drama that erupted out of that was so massive that I dropped out of college. I still tried to hold on to FF7 for 10 years, but it was a desperate, clawlike hold, and I was very raw. Tumblr wave 1 was terrible for me.

Happy Birthday!!!

I love this so much!!!! :3

I feel this. I really had a scintillating experience in the 2010s on tumbls with yall, though. I'm sad that it's gone, but I'm more glad it happened. Hoping I can get the experience with a different series somewhere else soon

That being said, if you genuinely like the art I do and want to be friends, I'm cool with that! I'm just gonna be as real as I can with people that I like characters in fiction that are really hard for most people to think about, and I don't want that to be a surprise.

I made fandom friendships the center of my life for a very long time, and there have been some amazing things that have come out of it. I love the friends who I can tell love me back. I gotta slow down and put myself and my own emotional needs first, though, cuz no one else is gonna do it for me.

The way I was raised had me thinking that I should carry a lot of responsibility, & my default is to put literally all of my thoughts and needs to one side to help support others. I never thought I'd reach a breaking point, bc it feels very good to help others, but fandom ppl are very short sighted.

A bunch of icky stuff has happened to me that I didn't want, beyond my control. I feel like I should have the right to reclaim what I can. I've certainly gotten lost in the past with this kind of behavior, but I think it's unfair to expect someone to be socially compatible with literally everyone.

Omg I hope she's okay D:

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Madonna's Frozen caused so many angsty Hojo Enjoyer thoughts in me in 1998. I was insufferable and I apologize, but it has happened with other characters, and will happen again. youtu.be/XS088Opj9o0?...