I just feel like something bad is gonna happen to me again. More than it already has. Everything gets worse and worse and whatever it is that’s coming next will probably hurt me the most.
December 18, 2025 at 9:30 AM
I just feel like something bad is gonna happen to me again. More than it already has. Everything gets worse and worse and whatever it is that’s coming next will probably hurt me the most.
Fluctuating on suicide again. Longer I stay in this house the worse I’ll feel. Sorry for being a mess. But holy shit I’m so fucking lonely and lost. My distractions are barely there anymore. And it’s hard to keep pretending to be okay around everyone.
December 2, 2025 at 4:55 AM
Fluctuating on suicide again. Longer I stay in this house the worse I’ll feel. Sorry for being a mess. But holy shit I’m so fucking lonely and lost. My distractions are barely there anymore. And it’s hard to keep pretending to be okay around everyone.
Unloved unwanted incapable of holding into any real relationships. I don’t think I’ll kill myself anytime soon but I am indifferent to living and suffering. Maybe I’ll be pushed to the point one day. For now I wanna learn how to skate and breath a bit more. It’s hard to smile when I can’t share it.
November 9, 2025 at 8:14 AM
Unloved unwanted incapable of holding into any real relationships. I don’t think I’ll kill myself anytime soon but I am indifferent to living and suffering. Maybe I’ll be pushed to the point one day. For now I wanna learn how to skate and breath a bit more. It’s hard to smile when I can’t share it.