SOMA is scary AF, and also coincidentally has a good handful of FF14 voice actors in it! (HW onward VA at least!)

Also, if learning to do something creative makes you genuinely miserable, and you get zero enjoyment out of it, zero pride in your faltering first attempts, then I'm not totally clear on why you want so badly to do it

uuaa

needless to say as someone who makes nsfw content to survive and pay rent this entire thing has been deeply upsetting to me; im going to be upset at the companies for folding so easily but yes, i *do* know its not their fault. let me vent out my damn frustrations for second

go tackle the raging pedophilia in christian cult communities instead idk (rhetorical, they wont do this bc it would be doing something good for people)