I have a soft spot for yellow water lilies since childhood

Well it won't go away, it will come back stronger, closer and more real than before. This is how my perfectly rational fears interfere with my rational behavior, making it irrational and dangerous.

As a child (in the late/post USSR), I had a serious phobia precisely about this thing: I was afraid to asleep in the train, because there were plenty of cockroaches and I was totally sure that they're only waiting for a chance to get inside my ears 😬

Не повезло мне с ближайшими наблюдениями выходит

Эти штуки навсегда уже, стремно

И где ты ещё не полу-селебрити и можно шитпостить без стеснения :)