The scales, the curve, the folds of the base - I discover something new every time I look at him ♡

f2u base: www.deviantart.com/mik-tee/art/...

And since I can’t do anything, I feel useless and bored, both of which my brain finds unacceptable to the point of wanting to go wander into the woods, climb a tall tree, and take a leap wearing a safety necklace of hemp. I’m physically safe, but my brain is a bad place.

I’m also in a flare up of whatever the fuck this is since the beginning of July (getting more and more convinced it’s actually Crohn’s and not just IBS) so I can’t go anywhere or do anything and I’m having panic attacks 3+ times a day which is making me feel insane and exhausted

It looks amazing! I saw the prototype but this is so cool ☆ I 3D model paddles for fun but never knew they could be actually printed!

It doesn’t mean you did anything wrong or that I’m a jerk. Our energies just don’t match or something. I’m protecting my peace and making sure we don’t actually become enemies by keeping our interactions to a minimum. Just respect that boundary and we’re good. Okay?

I went and thought back on our conversations, if we had any, and realized that interacting with you takes more energy than I have to spare for socializing, or that interacting simply does not spark joy. It happens. Sometimes people just don’t get along. Nobody’s a villain. We just don’t vibe. 🤷🏻

I don’t know how to hold a “normal” conversation, I despise small talk, I don’t know how to not trauma dump or info dump on people and usually people ghost me after one or two interactions. If you’ve been unfriended or unfollowed, I’ve Marie Kondo’d our interactions.