Flunked an interview for a job I was desperate to get. I am gutted.

My brother died 6 weeks after my son was born. “They say every time somebody die a child is born, so I thank my brother who gave his life for the birth of my son”.

If I have another son, I will name him after my brother. I have got to protect his legacy. My brother did not procreate while on this earth, I have got to keep him alive somehow.

Since my brother died, I have replaced my alter ego with him. I still talk to him but as my alter ego, I make decisions as he would have and respond to myself in his voice. This is my way of coping with my brother’s demise and my way of remembering him and his voice.

I miss you so much Chigozie.

My brother’s body has been committed to the earth where he is going to sleep forever, I hope his soul finds peace in eternity. He lived a good life, he was family oriented, and loved us all. He had a brilliant mind, the best I have seen. When the time comes, I hope to be committed next to him 💔.

My brother is dead and I will never see him again.

I can barely talk to my parents because I am going to suffer an emotional breakdown if I see my grieving mother.

My brother was special to me, he was my first teacher, my mentor, and my motivation. I share my wins and struggles with him. It hurts me that he is going to miss the rest of our lives.

The worst moments are when I come to the realization that I will never see my brother again.

What I have discovered about losing a loved one so far.
1) Your smile is never complete
2) Your heart is going to stay broken forever
3) Your mood can move from from full happiness to complete emotional breakdown in a whiff
4) Grieving leaves you physically, emotionally, and mentally scarred.

My life is so complicated atm. I have little joy here and there and I have a fountain of happiness in my little son but most of the time my heart is broken thinking about my dead brother and my grieving family.

My life is broken forever.

God is the greatest! If you believe,Repost!

This is what my son looks like. I love you son even if my heart is currently too heavy following my brother’s passing.

Life has not been great lately but I hope it gets better. I had a son and two months later I lost my oldest brother.