Myself again…

Only time will tell… 6/6

I didn’t feel so useless. So horrible so everything.

But that’s all that I have now and that’s all that I have to live with.

Not sleeping barely eating once again, and even with all the fucking drugs I take every day to help my mental state it’s not working…

I’m sorry… idk when I’ll be 5/?

Self worth. I want to accomplish so many things, I want to experience true happiness again. But my whole entire being refuses to let me do so.

So. If I don’t seem like myself. If I’m not streaming or interacting as much. Just know, this is the reason.

I wish I didn’t feel so worthless. I wish4/?

But I am not… okay. I’m not, haven’t been for a while, not gonna be okay for another while yet.

I may have my moments of joy, even as sporadic as they may be. But; overall, I’m off the deep end. And I can’t swim. And there’s sharks prowling the water.

I’m drowning. In my own, horrible 3/?

Way to describe it besides. Exhausted.

Everything I do, everything I plan, everything that I want to accomplish and or do… falls between the cracks and sends me tumbling to the bottom again off of that rope.

I’m. Mentally done. With a lot of things. I can’t lie to you anymore, when I say this2/?

I will be once I’m out of here lol

So much

Me with stranger danger

I’ve been following you for a while I’ve just been to shy to say anything aaahhh, I love your style and you seem super cool I would love to connect!!

Ooooo… wasn’t it cherry????? I can’t remember!

You got this! Pull that 🦎

Yeah fuck the snow!!

Never go to bed angry. Never stop saying I love you. Always give hugs. Always love.

You never know what can happen, and you never want the last experience with someone you care so deeply about… to really be the LAST…

No matter what; Hold your loved ones tight, and cherish every moment. 💜