LGBTQIA+ | On the neverending waiting list | Person who attempts multiple creative projects but too apathetic to fully commit (previous attempts include streaming, writing, lofty ideas of music). Currently doing Youtube again - youtube.com/@doublesheen
over the last year i got into a routine with youtube and was enjoying the series that i was doing but now that i'm hearing google wants to use videos to train ai i don't want to be there. i have no idea what i'll end up doing with future video ideas when their bs inevitably push me off the platform
June 24, 2025 at 1:25 PM
over the last year i got into a routine with youtube and was enjoying the series that i was doing but now that i'm hearing google wants to use videos to train ai i don't want to be there. i have no idea what i'll end up doing with future video ideas when their bs inevitably push me off the platform
Now I'm in a situation where my eyes have adjusted to the new glasses/lenses so I can't wear the old ones without getting headaches, but the new ones are causing eye strain in less than 30 mins use. Can't get re-tested til Monday and it'll be at least 2 weeks for correct lenses to arrive.
June 6, 2025 at 12:55 PM
Now I'm in a situation where my eyes have adjusted to the new glasses/lenses so I can't wear the old ones without getting headaches, but the new ones are causing eye strain in less than 30 mins use. Can't get re-tested til Monday and it'll be at least 2 weeks for correct lenses to arrive.
Even though I'm fully conscious of the fact I need to compartmentalize this project in order to get anywhere, any time I open it my mind refuses to split it into more manageable pieces. The size of the entire thing then gets overwhelming. And no progress gets made.
May 23, 2025 at 11:05 PM
Even though I'm fully conscious of the fact I need to compartmentalize this project in order to get anywhere, any time I open it my mind refuses to split it into more manageable pieces. The size of the entire thing then gets overwhelming. And no progress gets made.
Discovered something helpful this afternoon and I now have a new found hope on this project. To the point that I'm finally setting myself a rough deadline of September 30th. Of course I have very little idea of what I'm getting into so setting such a deadline is a terrible idea.
May 17, 2025 at 11:48 PM
Discovered something helpful this afternoon and I now have a new found hope on this project. To the point that I'm finally setting myself a rough deadline of September 30th. Of course I have very little idea of what I'm getting into so setting such a deadline is a terrible idea.
might have to cancel all of my future projects before the first one even begins because of one tiny stupid fucking problem that i can't fix and nowhere seems to have an answer for why this keeps breaking. these projects were literally one of my only sources of joy over the last two weeks.
May 15, 2025 at 6:57 PM
might have to cancel all of my future projects before the first one even begins because of one tiny stupid fucking problem that i can't fix and nowhere seems to have an answer for why this keeps breaking. these projects were literally one of my only sources of joy over the last two weeks.
Was lurking a Clair Obscur stream and as soon as they met Maelle for the first time a bunch of non-followers started making comments about her age and that "it's ok" and immediately had to leave. Men feel way too comfortable saying paedo shit out loud.
May 14, 2025 at 2:11 PM
Was lurking a Clair Obscur stream and as soon as they met Maelle for the first time a bunch of non-followers started making comments about her age and that "it's ok" and immediately had to leave. Men feel way too comfortable saying paedo shit out loud.
been getting very excited for some new creative projects i've been drafting and today got hit by the "this is a field i haven't looked too much into before, how do i know that my ideas haven't already been done? what if i accidentally plagiarize?"
this kind of energy from the brain is not helpful
May 9, 2025 at 6:34 PM
been getting very excited for some new creative projects i've been drafting and today got hit by the "this is a field i haven't looked too much into before, how do i know that my ideas haven't already been done? what if i accidentally plagiarize?"
so I somehow chose the name Gemma for myself a full year before my egg cracked (it makes sense i swear) and i've been happy with it, except for the last two weeks where out of nowhere my brain just started saying "what if I was a Sophie? Being called Soph by friends would be nice"
April 30, 2025 at 9:28 PM
so I somehow chose the name Gemma for myself a full year before my egg cracked (it makes sense i swear) and i've been happy with it, except for the last two weeks where out of nowhere my brain just started saying "what if I was a Sophie? Being called Soph by friends would be nice"
ok so i can't take my mind off of it, i am constantly in a state of imagining how i'd handle the worst case scenario and my last possible option, and now i'm in a constant state of anxiety because i'm thinking about it so much my brain has tricked itself into thinking it's going to happen
April 27, 2025 at 12:37 PM
ok so i can't take my mind off of it, i am constantly in a state of imagining how i'd handle the worst case scenario and my last possible option, and now i'm in a constant state of anxiety because i'm thinking about it so much my brain has tricked itself into thinking it's going to happen
It seems inevitable now that at some point in the future I will have to move to another country. I just can't wrap my head around the logistics of it or even figure out exactly where would be safe to go.
April 25, 2025 at 3:05 PM
It seems inevitable now that at some point in the future I will have to move to another country. I just can't wrap my head around the logistics of it or even figure out exactly where would be safe to go.
for years i never used the schedule feature on the twitch profile. last week i finally did it. this week i've only met one day of the schedule because a meeting took me out of the first day and a mysterious mouth-related illness began yesterday.
March 27, 2025 at 1:09 PM
for years i never used the schedule feature on the twitch profile. last week i finally did it. this week i've only met one day of the schedule because a meeting took me out of the first day and a mysterious mouth-related illness began yesterday.
finally got round to watching elimination chamber and this is absolutely the most pathetic wrestling crowd i've ever witnessed. no noise. no enthusiasm. any attempt at a chant sounds like 3 losers in a pub that nobody wants to acknowledge.
March 3, 2025 at 12:09 AM
finally got round to watching elimination chamber and this is absolutely the most pathetic wrestling crowd i've ever witnessed. no noise. no enthusiasm. any attempt at a chant sounds like 3 losers in a pub that nobody wants to acknowledge.
update on the situation earlier. i have now uploaded every finished video i have in my backlog and this has left me with only 5 unreserved upload dates in May to cover literally any multiplayer stuff i do over the next 3 months. i think i have to change my schedule to daily uploads for just 1 month.
February 27, 2025 at 1:39 AM
update on the situation earlier. i have now uploaded every finished video i have in my backlog and this has left me with only 5 unreserved upload dates in May to cover literally any multiplayer stuff i do over the next 3 months. i think i have to change my schedule to daily uploads for just 1 month.