i didnt even finish my sentence i lost the ones id been using for 4ish years 😭

for some reason i get like insane anxiety listening to music with earbuds/headphones on when im in my room alone but like nowhere else, i have to be able to hear everything when im alone or i lose my shit 😭

STP*

SLAY THE PRINCESS IS SO PEAK I MISS MY SLP PHASE SO MYUCH

theres more responsibilities and shit placed on you and u cant be a dumbass and make mistakes all the time like i do, at work i drop so much shit its insane i feel so bad im clumsy as hell

once ur old u gotta actually get a fulltime job and spend 90% of ur life there plus if ur job pays low wages ur cooked and gotta get a new one, plus my homie might get a job by then so she can’t play roblox w me all the time 😭 plus u gotta move out wnd pay rent or just pay rent and live with ur fam

OFC!!! the mona lisa one really is catchy ive been listening to it for like weeks LOL

god that sucks so much ass dude i really hope u feel better soon 🫂

these two songs

open.spotify.com/track/3DhZXV...

open.spotify.com/track/5fCQKQ...

also listen to wave to earth theyre peak

but whatever i have a job and my puppy and that gets me pretty far but when im at my wits end like this what do i even do? im a shitty bastard whos still in love with his ex and probably will never move on. and even if i do i cant see myself in another relationship ever again.

at the same time tho if i ever lost someone i was that close to again id probably kill myself. like genuinely i cannot stop thinking about my ex ill think im over them and then ill get sad and drown myself in what couldve been. god my life is so fucking ass

god and it doesnt help the only person im close with now is best friends with someone who just decided to drop me out of nowhere lmao,, which i dont blame them or harbor any bad feelings for my friend but i just cannot be too close because then i know it will start affecting me