making art is genuinely so fun to do. watching something *become* by your own hand, going through the creative process of making something that you enjoy and developing something of your own

and people would forgo that just to get art quick..? tell an ai to be 'creative' for you? it makes me sad

i point the gun towards myself

with no regard for my health

because who cares
about what happens
to me?

stood outside for half an hour in the rain for my bus and now my limited edition wings of fire book has water damage

awesome start to my morning

one of these days ill be able to find my people
to build a following that enjoys the variety of what I post rather than attracting bots and single fandoms alike

until then i may just be trekking along this seemingly lonely path, of art unliked and thoughts unheard by anyone but myself

trying to interact more with people on here because i wanna build up and make friends
i just hope that im not found annoying

i understand that these websites are never get instantly famous and it really all depends on luck
but am i wrong to want that same attention?
to feel as though im seen and heard as much as any other?
i want to interact, though not many want to with me ....

am i selfish to think in such a way ?

doing my silly thing and forgetting about the world burning around me 😊😊