Alister
@fyren.vore.meme
He/him, 30yo, Kiwi, your local Imp/FoxBat menace
18+ account, no minors, no bots, no normies.
Vore (Fatal only), shower thoughts, venting, and I dunno what else.
Asexual but CV/UB and mature themes sometimes enjoyed.
18+ account, no minors, no bots, no normies.
Vore (Fatal only), shower thoughts, venting, and I dunno what else.
Asexual but CV/UB and mature themes sometimes enjoyed.
Though I guess I stopped getting the food poisoning from every time she cooks chicken, when she stopped doing that, so maybe that has something to do with it
December 23, 2025 at 10:29 AM
Though I guess I stopped getting the food poisoning from every time she cooks chicken, when she stopped doing that, so maybe that has something to do with it
It's a system I really don't like. Like, we used to have a thing where my dinner would just get left in the oven and I'd come out and grab it when I want it, I'd eat it out there and then I'd go back to my room. And that worked so much better for me for a ton of different reasons
December 23, 2025 at 10:28 AM
It's a system I really don't like. Like, we used to have a thing where my dinner would just get left in the oven and I'd come out and grab it when I want it, I'd eat it out there and then I'd go back to my room. And that worked so much better for me for a ton of different reasons
Which weirdly, my nan made me stop doing?? Like, she started bringing my dinner to my room one day and it never stopped, and I have never asked her why the fuck she even started doing it
December 23, 2025 at 10:27 AM
Which weirdly, my nan made me stop doing?? Like, she started bringing my dinner to my room one day and it never stopped, and I have never asked her why the fuck she even started doing it
..Come to think of it, I've been overlooking the most basic answer to all of this.
If I just, had dinner in the living area, I would entirely solve this. A set time frame in which I am there with the expectation to communicate and be around others
If I just, had dinner in the living area, I would entirely solve this. A set time frame in which I am there with the expectation to communicate and be around others
December 23, 2025 at 10:25 AM
..Come to think of it, I've been overlooking the most basic answer to all of this.
If I just, had dinner in the living area, I would entirely solve this. A set time frame in which I am there with the expectation to communicate and be around others
If I just, had dinner in the living area, I would entirely solve this. A set time frame in which I am there with the expectation to communicate and be around others
But if you try and approach someone to set a time to start communicating with them, when you live with them, they act like you're a mfucking martian
December 23, 2025 at 10:24 AM
But if you try and approach someone to set a time to start communicating with them, when you live with them, they act like you're a mfucking martian
Like, if I start doing it, I create the expectation, and then not meeting that expectation is more of a let down than keeping things exactly as they are right now
December 23, 2025 at 10:24 AM
Like, if I start doing it, I create the expectation, and then not meeting that expectation is more of a let down than keeping things exactly as they are right now
And I do not know how to fix this without making a permanent commitment to ALWAYS have a conversation when I make eye contact
December 23, 2025 at 10:23 AM
And I do not know how to fix this without making a permanent commitment to ALWAYS have a conversation when I make eye contact
But if say, the same people I live with, if they lived elsewhere and visited once a week, I would leave my room with the deliberate intent to chat, and we would chat, and it would be great
December 23, 2025 at 10:22 AM
But if say, the same people I live with, if they lived elsewhere and visited once a week, I would leave my room with the deliberate intent to chat, and we would chat, and it would be great
Rather chew on rusty nails than fucking talk to people in the morning
December 23, 2025 at 10:22 AM
Rather chew on rusty nails than fucking talk to people in the morning
It's probably because I won't leave my room with the expectation to chat, if things are exactly the same as they always are. If there aren't visitors, if there aren't people staying.
I mean, if I left my room to chat and hang out, it would be expected every single time I do and I literally would..
I mean, if I left my room to chat and hang out, it would be expected every single time I do and I literally would..
December 23, 2025 at 10:22 AM
It's probably because I won't leave my room with the expectation to chat, if things are exactly the same as they always are. If there aren't visitors, if there aren't people staying.
I mean, if I left my room to chat and hang out, it would be expected every single time I do and I literally would..
I mean, if I left my room to chat and hang out, it would be expected every single time I do and I literally would..
The way they go about it just does not mesh with me. If I live with you I will spend less time talking to you than any online friend or friend that lives anywhere else.
Why?? I don't know. Because I don't do casual chats?? I don't use living spaces?? Something like that
Why?? I don't know. Because I don't do casual chats?? I don't use living spaces?? Something like that
December 23, 2025 at 10:19 AM
The way they go about it just does not mesh with me. If I live with you I will spend less time talking to you than any online friend or friend that lives anywhere else.
Why?? I don't know. Because I don't do casual chats?? I don't use living spaces?? Something like that
Why?? I don't know. Because I don't do casual chats?? I don't use living spaces?? Something like that
For context, all of this, like every other living situation is all related to this one, simple quirk that I have.
I can't spend time with people I live with. I don't fucking know why but I can't. Every living situation I've been in with others has had this issue, in which people want to, but..
I can't spend time with people I live with. I don't fucking know why but I can't. Every living situation I've been in with others has had this issue, in which people want to, but..
December 23, 2025 at 10:19 AM
For context, all of this, like every other living situation is all related to this one, simple quirk that I have.
I can't spend time with people I live with. I don't fucking know why but I can't. Every living situation I've been in with others has had this issue, in which people want to, but..
I can't spend time with people I live with. I don't fucking know why but I can't. Every living situation I've been in with others has had this issue, in which people want to, but..
We are all fundamentally incompatible. I am with a lot of people. Normally that would be okay, but for family it's not. You have to try and mesh with family regardless, and find how to make it work
December 23, 2025 at 10:14 AM
We are all fundamentally incompatible. I am with a lot of people. Normally that would be okay, but for family it's not. You have to try and mesh with family regardless, and find how to make it work
It should be as simple as communicating with them, but all that will do in this circumstance is move that guilt around like a twisted game of hot potato.
I don't want to feel it, but if I don't feel it, someone else is going to have to, because that's just how this situation is
I don't want to feel it, but if I don't feel it, someone else is going to have to, because that's just how this situation is
December 23, 2025 at 10:13 AM
It should be as simple as communicating with them, but all that will do in this circumstance is move that guilt around like a twisted game of hot potato.
I don't want to feel it, but if I don't feel it, someone else is going to have to, because that's just how this situation is
I don't want to feel it, but if I don't feel it, someone else is going to have to, because that's just how this situation is
While at the same time, unable to destroy myself to meet the expectations that would allow them to feel that 'love'
December 23, 2025 at 10:11 AM
While at the same time, unable to destroy myself to meet the expectations that would allow them to feel that 'love'
It just.. It really feels bad, sometimes. To know that if I continue to act in the way I do, the people I love will go the rest of their lives wondering what they did wrong.
December 23, 2025 at 10:10 AM
It just.. It really feels bad, sometimes. To know that if I continue to act in the way I do, the people I love will go the rest of their lives wondering what they did wrong.
I talked with my cousin about it, and he understood it. He's in the exact same boat, but he's accepted it, and he's not bound to their views and opinions. I could imagine he struggles with feeling guilty about it too, even if we've never talked about that part of it..
December 23, 2025 at 10:09 AM
I talked with my cousin about it, and he understood it. He's in the exact same boat, but he's accepted it, and he's not bound to their views and opinions. I could imagine he struggles with feeling guilty about it too, even if we've never talked about that part of it..
I love them, and I want to do right by them. Genuinely. But the circumstances around me and pressure I feel from the mundane elements of my life leave me feeling that if I do so, it will be a commitment I will never have the energy to maintain
December 23, 2025 at 10:06 AM
I love them, and I want to do right by them. Genuinely. But the circumstances around me and pressure I feel from the mundane elements of my life leave me feeling that if I do so, it will be a commitment I will never have the energy to maintain
..I am confused as to how this results in less, and not more vore
December 22, 2025 at 8:34 AM
..I am confused as to how this results in less, and not more vore