Fundertaker
@fundertaker.bsky.social
Leftist Boston area gameplay engineer. LARPer, builder of mod halls and monster suits. VR and online game enthusiast. Forging a neon future! My views do not represent my employer.
Basically every aspect of my life is circling the drain. I've never had so many things going wrong simultaneously. The only happy corner I have had to hide in is LARP, but the fall season is over which is forcing me to deal with the rest of it.
November 22, 2025 at 7:32 AM
Basically every aspect of my life is circling the drain. I've never had so many things going wrong simultaneously. The only happy corner I have had to hide in is LARP, but the fall season is over which is forcing me to deal with the rest of it.
I hate private insurance as a concept but I also hate that putting healthcare exclusively in the hands of the government gives power over every person's healthcare needs and decisions to a potentially hostile national government. Not a lot of good choices. Greed kills us one way or another.
October 1, 2025 at 11:26 PM
I hate private insurance as a concept but I also hate that putting healthcare exclusively in the hands of the government gives power over every person's healthcare needs and decisions to a potentially hostile national government. Not a lot of good choices. Greed kills us one way or another.
Those of my followers with impeccable senses of humor will see that what I've done here is that for comedic effect I have pretended my struggle results from the chosen metaphor rather than that the metaphor was chosen to better illustrate my anxieties within the context
September 30, 2025 at 6:33 AM
Those of my followers with impeccable senses of humor will see that what I've done here is that for comedic effect I have pretended my struggle results from the chosen metaphor rather than that the metaphor was chosen to better illustrate my anxieties within the context
I am no longer immensely lonely but now I find myself juggling a lot of plates in pursuit of long term happiness and it's very stressful because I am very clumsy. If only I'd chosen a metaphor more suitable for such an uncoordinated person!
September 30, 2025 at 6:30 AM
I am no longer immensely lonely but now I find myself juggling a lot of plates in pursuit of long term happiness and it's very stressful because I am very clumsy. If only I'd chosen a metaphor more suitable for such an uncoordinated person!
My ADHD meds are contributing to my loneliness and here's how: even if I take them early in the morning, I end up staying up very late. At this time of night, nobody else is up and when the activity online dies off I start feeling isolated and I have to sit with it for hours instead of sleeping
September 26, 2025 at 5:38 AM
My ADHD meds are contributing to my loneliness and here's how: even if I take them early in the morning, I end up staying up very late. At this time of night, nobody else is up and when the activity online dies off I start feeling isolated and I have to sit with it for hours instead of sleeping
I'm telling you if i ever find a way to get everything i need from the people around me in my physical community the Internet is never going to see me again, it's such a mess to be online these days
September 26, 2025 at 2:30 AM
I'm telling you if i ever find a way to get everything i need from the people around me in my physical community the Internet is never going to see me again, it's such a mess to be online these days
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Big announcement: I'm releasing my own indie game! #gamedev #indiedev
Wishlist now on Steam: store.steampowered.com/app/3976740/...
Wishlist now on Steam: store.steampowered.com/app/3976740/...
Soloria on Steam
Ever feel like online games are a little too online these days? Why not try a FMMORPG - a Fake Massively Multiplayer Offline Role-Playing Game - and live out your online game dreams in an offline game...
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September 18, 2025 at 12:32 AM
Big announcement: I'm releasing my own indie game! #gamedev #indiedev
Wishlist now on Steam: store.steampowered.com/app/3976740/...
Wishlist now on Steam: store.steampowered.com/app/3976740/...
Yesterday I identified a prop immediately on sight that was a container for a toy which had been transformed into a biohazard sample container for a larp. I saw it and went that's really cool, I think i know which toy's packaging that is. I was 100% correct. I ... May know too much about this shit.
September 15, 2025 at 11:05 AM
Yesterday I identified a prop immediately on sight that was a container for a toy which had been transformed into a biohazard sample container for a larp. I saw it and went that's really cool, I think i know which toy's packaging that is. I was 100% correct. I ... May know too much about this shit.
Honestly I think marvel is getting their shit back together. I think the kang fiasco and the pandemic really screwed with the story they were trying to tell, and there were some bad missteps along the way but i think it's back on track. Latest films give me some hope.
September 4, 2025 at 7:55 PM
Honestly I think marvel is getting their shit back together. I think the kang fiasco and the pandemic really screwed with the story they were trying to tell, and there were some bad missteps along the way but i think it's back on track. Latest films give me some hope.
This past year was horribly lonely. I spent a lot of time "learning to enjoy being alone with myself" without practicing much self kindness or doing anything to address my social needs - clearly that didn't work and my mental health took a nosedive. Made a promise to myself to fight to be happier.
September 4, 2025 at 12:36 PM
This past year was horribly lonely. I spent a lot of time "learning to enjoy being alone with myself" without practicing much self kindness or doing anything to address my social needs - clearly that didn't work and my mental health took a nosedive. Made a promise to myself to fight to be happier.
Sometimes knowing more about what's going on with yourself psychologically does absolutely nothing at all to help
August 20, 2025 at 12:35 PM
Sometimes knowing more about what's going on with yourself psychologically does absolutely nothing at all to help
Spending time tonight ruminating on old wounds and using the regret I feel to imagine a happier future and a path toward healing. Shit our parents did that screwed us up can be a bit of a maze to reflect upon. If you don't plot a course back out it's easy to get lost and do nothing productive
August 19, 2025 at 5:28 AM
Spending time tonight ruminating on old wounds and using the regret I feel to imagine a happier future and a path toward healing. Shit our parents did that screwed us up can be a bit of a maze to reflect upon. If you don't plot a course back out it's easy to get lost and do nothing productive
I'm such an unbearably neurotic mess, I just want the ability to form relationships with other people without constantly thrashing back and forth between being extremely needy and pushing them away. I can't stop overcorrecting.
July 27, 2025 at 10:14 PM
I'm such an unbearably neurotic mess, I just want the ability to form relationships with other people without constantly thrashing back and forth between being extremely needy and pushing them away. I can't stop overcorrecting.
Instead of beaming messages of greetings and peace into space we should be beaming videos of our pets. "Have you seen Frank yet? He was my potato with lungs and he would bark to be placed on his mighty throne. I would cook him hamburgers. Some of his legs didn't work. He loved to lick grass."
July 17, 2025 at 7:04 AM
Instead of beaming messages of greetings and peace into space we should be beaming videos of our pets. "Have you seen Frank yet? He was my potato with lungs and he would bark to be placed on his mighty throne. I would cook him hamburgers. Some of his legs didn't work. He loved to lick grass."
When I woke up today i had food crumbs on my belly and i was like wow I'm a messy eater that's gross. Then i realized I didn't eat anything with crumbs. On closer inspection:
Dog food crumb! Stella! Why you do this to your Paul?!?
Dog food crumb! Stella! Why you do this to your Paul?!?
July 16, 2025 at 3:11 PM
When I woke up today i had food crumbs on my belly and i was like wow I'm a messy eater that's gross. Then i realized I didn't eat anything with crumbs. On closer inspection:
Dog food crumb! Stella! Why you do this to your Paul?!?
Dog food crumb! Stella! Why you do this to your Paul?!?
The ads I keep seeing for Drachenfest feature someone I've met IRL several times who is an absolute mustache twirling mean girls style Disney villain and I gotta say nothing has ever made me cringe at an entire organization quite like seeing someone cruel and manipulative featured in their ads.
July 14, 2025 at 4:20 PM
The ads I keep seeing for Drachenfest feature someone I've met IRL several times who is an absolute mustache twirling mean girls style Disney villain and I gotta say nothing has ever made me cringe at an entire organization quite like seeing someone cruel and manipulative featured in their ads.
Been swimming almost every day for a few weeks, took a few days off, came back to it today and I'm completely wiped out it's unreal. I'm really happy lately though, I think the exercise helps
July 12, 2025 at 2:13 AM
Been swimming almost every day for a few weeks, took a few days off, came back to it today and I'm completely wiped out it's unreal. I'm really happy lately though, I think the exercise helps
I had a dream that my dog Frank who passed away many years ago had escaped into the artificial pond I swim at and kept getting stuck under the water and needing a rescue. There was an actual dog who escaped into the pond yesterday and Frank did love the beach so I see where that came from. Miss him.
July 6, 2025 at 9:58 PM
I had a dream that my dog Frank who passed away many years ago had escaped into the artificial pond I swim at and kept getting stuck under the water and needing a rescue. There was an actual dog who escaped into the pond yesterday and Frank did love the beach so I see where that came from. Miss him.
Mulan was always my favorite Disney princess because I was also a bit strange for my gender and had to deal with not really fitting the mold I was expected to and wanting a future for myself that was different from what most guys wanted. Certainly different from what my family expected.
July 6, 2025 at 7:12 AM
Mulan was always my favorite Disney princess because I was also a bit strange for my gender and had to deal with not really fitting the mold I was expected to and wanting a future for myself that was different from what most guys wanted. Certainly different from what my family expected.
I'm just very sad this fourth of July and not at all in a mood to celebrate. Thankful I'm part of a community of people who care about each other.
July 4, 2025 at 11:30 PM
I'm just very sad this fourth of July and not at all in a mood to celebrate. Thankful I'm part of a community of people who care about each other.
Feeling very melancholy ever since recovering from that stomach flu.
July 3, 2025 at 7:32 AM
Feeling very melancholy ever since recovering from that stomach flu.
Ngl when someone says "i don't like to drink any calories" i think "that sounds really boring" and I judge a little
July 3, 2025 at 1:50 AM
Ngl when someone says "i don't like to drink any calories" i think "that sounds really boring" and I judge a little
My great aunt was basically a second grandmother to me and I loved her dearly but she was also one of the most judgemental people I've ever met and she lost out on having a lot of people in her life that she might have been close to if she were more empathetic and less self righteous
June 30, 2025 at 4:54 PM
My great aunt was basically a second grandmother to me and I loved her dearly but she was also one of the most judgemental people I've ever met and she lost out on having a lot of people in her life that she might have been close to if she were more empathetic and less self righteous
Whenever I feel insecure I remember that my dog literally needs validation so badly that she will knock on the door while I'm in the bathroom and demand pats. She clearly has no idea how much you have to love someone to pick up their poo in a bag multiple times a day.
June 26, 2025 at 8:20 PM
Whenever I feel insecure I remember that my dog literally needs validation so badly that she will knock on the door while I'm in the bathroom and demand pats. She clearly has no idea how much you have to love someone to pick up their poo in a bag multiple times a day.
Having my brain cook in my skull for a few days with a nasty fever has kind of got me in this place where my old anxieties don't seem as important anymore. Like it could be worse, I could be confused, weak and uncomfortable everywhere so let's just get this done and not worry
June 23, 2025 at 9:52 PM
Having my brain cook in my skull for a few days with a nasty fever has kind of got me in this place where my old anxieties don't seem as important anymore. Like it could be worse, I could be confused, weak and uncomfortable everywhere so let's just get this done and not worry