messaging him won't help. he won't answer. he left. he left his feelings, he left yjh. there was nothing for yjh to grab on. it hurts. maybe this is the same pain kdj felt when he was rejected. you really don't know what you have til it's gone.

yjh was silent. he was processing what he heard.

hsy: hey, i need to hang up now. the director is calling me. just message him that you're worried about him. i know he'll tell you everything. bye!

hsy: he is now chasing his dream i guess.
yjh: to be a singer?
hsy: yeah. he really didn't tell you where he was going?
yjh: no. i'm still waiting for him at his house right now.
hsy: ahh. there's no use waiting for him there.
yjh: why?
hsy: he left the country.

hsy: hmmm. one of his dreams is to be a singer you see.
yjh: and what's the other?
hsy: he didn't mention it to me. he just looked... hmm, how can i describe it? he looked like he gave up on the other dream.
yjh: and how does that relate to where he is?

hsy: why are you asking? did he not tell you?
yjh: what do you mean?

hsy can hear the confusion in yjh's voice. "what the hell happened between these 2?" hsy thought to herself.

hsy: well. yesterday, he told me that he had 2 dreams.
yjh: what do you mean dreams?

there were no clothes. even the shoe cabinets are empty. it feels like dokja is not coming here any longer.

he then phoned hsy, kdj's closest friend aside from him, and asked if she knows where dokja is.

yjh: do you know where dokja is?

he feels that there is something inside the house that will lead him to know about kdj's whereabouts. he went to the bedroom again, and searched if there is still a note he might discover. what he saw was not a note, but an empty closet.

he just noticed what this note means. it means that kdj is letting go of him. he can't believe that he just realized it. he was as stiff as statue for a good 10 minutes, then decided to look for kdj. before he leave the house, he was feeling uneasy.

but he now realizes that he was just a coward. he then decided that later, when kdj goes home, he will be the one to confess then.

after waiting until 9pm, there are still no signs of kdj. he looked at the note left for him and read it again.

he realized that the reason he rejected kdj was because he wants them to be together forever, even as friends. he loves dokja very much but was afraid that if they take the next step, there will come a day that they may separate ways. he doesn't want that.

"here's your breakfast! also, thank you for the memories. i'll cherish everything you gave me since the beginning. i wish you happiness. i love you, my best friend. :)"

yjh smiled a little at the note.

his half asleep eyes was now completely open and he looked beside him. he was alone. he wore his clothes and looked for kdj around the house. there was no one. he went to the kitchen and saw a note on the table toghether with the food prepped for him. on the note says:

the only thing that isn't real is the love.

the next morning, yjh woke up. when he opened his eyes, he realized that he slept in his friends house. after a little while, he remembered what happened the night before.

he then kissed yjh. yjh doesn't want to do this with a drunk person, especially to kdj. but maybe, this is a way of comforting him too. he let dokja take lead. that night, kdj felt that he was loved by the person he loves. every kiss and touch he felt were real.

yjh hugged kdj to give him comfort. he looks like he was about to cry. kdj then broke away from the hug.

kdj: i'll regret it and blame myself, i know. but please, just for tonight. after this, this love i have for you will be gone. i promise. please, just tonight...

yjh. you'll regret it.
kdj: maybe i will, but that will be my problem tomorrow, not today.
yjh: *sighs* no. you'll blame yourself. i don't want that to happen.
kdj: please. just tonight. please...

but he is now unsure of what to do. the kisses he keeps on receiving gives him so much pleasure that he wants to indulge in it more. but he was still rational. he lightly pushed kdj to break away from the kisses.

yjh: stop. you're drunk.
kdj: i know. that's why i'm doing this.

kdj: hahaha! you're right! but since i'm drunk...

kdj then grabbed yjh to his bed.

kdj: just think of this as actions of a drunk person.

he started kissing yjh. joonghyuk was also drunk but still has his senses. he wants to push dokja and go out the house,