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Junia Vale
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Eating disorder recovery / Body neutrality / Food freedom

Unitarian Universalism / Paganism / Buddhism

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A few ground rules I'm setting for myself:

* No food diaries / "what I ate today" kind of posts.
* No exercise or movement posts of any kind.
* No photos of myself or body comparisons.
* No food advice ("eat this not that").

Just to start with.
Creating a resource wall, a corkboard covered in crisis stuff. Almost a fun activity. It removes the decision-making some from crisis situations. “Call 988 when…”
November 10, 2025 at 11:27 PM
Something I’ve noticed about me is that I usually only… grow when others believe in me more than I do. I need to find someone who’s like, a coach for my recovery in order to put this thing in the ground tbh
November 10, 2025 at 12:51 PM
Deep discussion with my husband about what in the world I want to do with my life.
November 9, 2025 at 1:33 PM
As part of the “disorder of overcontrol” thing, I’ve been one of those people who are extremely guarded with their emotions. Always smother your emotions, never express them authentically. I’m trying to fix that.

Problem is I *appear* to be angrier and more depressed now. Nah that was always there
November 9, 2025 at 12:41 PM
The fucking glp-1 ads are going to kill me
November 9, 2025 at 1:38 AM
Experiencing emotional pain every time this character reoccurs. The author is very good at pointing out important small details. Almost every paragraph is absolutely essential to understanding the story and the characters.
Surprised (in a good way, actually) by this novel I’m reading seemingly having a named character with anorexia, both without focusing on it or understating it.

Surprised because it displays a level of awareness and care to know but still depict them as people with whole lives
November 8, 2025 at 4:48 PM
ACHIEVEMENT UNLOCKED: most fashionable person at IOP
November 8, 2025 at 1:23 PM
I’m so frustrated that there’s someone at IOP I get along with really well but there’s a strict “no inter-group friendships [outside group times]” to avoid little cliques forming and potential drama impacting group dynamics
November 7, 2025 at 10:26 PM
From IOP straight to work. Augh
November 7, 2025 at 9:34 PM
It helps me brush off the anorexia voice by remembering that it never has any new ideas. It's all stale. Sad? Don't eat. Stressed? Don't eat. Big event coming up? Don't eat. Nothing coming up? Don't eat. It's literally the same uncreative solution for every possible scenario and it's tired
November 6, 2025 at 7:54 PM
IOP was good today. I think the group therapist was encouraging me thoughtfully and it helped me get out of my funk a little. That and some discussion of how progress is inherently always messy.
November 6, 2025 at 5:34 PM
Surprised (in a good way, actually) by this novel I’m reading seemingly having a named character with anorexia, both without focusing on it or understating it.

Surprised because it displays a level of awareness and care to know but still depict them as people with whole lives
November 6, 2025 at 12:29 PM
Why’s it gotta be two steps forward one step back? Why can‘t it be two steps forward one step forward
November 5, 2025 at 11:10 PM
It’s been healing to simultaneously read Dependent Rational Animals by Alasdair MacIntyre and Night Vision by Mariana Alessandri. The unified theme is that there is dignity outside of peak functionality and peak happiness.
November 2, 2025 at 6:02 PM
There’s this song I like that goes “I haven’t had another episode, except last night was touch and go”

That’s how every therapy and IOP session has left lol
November 2, 2025 at 5:48 PM
”…Depression gives us another pair of eyes that, without requiring our gratitude, recolor our world and complicate the stories we tell…”

- Mariana Alessandri, Night Vision
November 1, 2025 at 10:08 PM
When I was younger, I committed myself to a philosophy designed to keep me alive: Every life, in every iteration, in every moment, is worth living. I knew if I made any qualifications to that philosophy my depression would latch on to it.

I think this last year has taught me it needs an amendment:
November 1, 2025 at 5:00 PM
Did a sort of “cleanse” ritual last night, at a Halloween event. Most the group wrote down something they want to send beyond the veil, we threw it in a metal bowl and lit it on fire. I wrote anorexia. Time for you to move on to the next world, ana. I’m ready to live without you.
November 1, 2025 at 1:44 PM
Reposted by Junia Vale
; 𝗵𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗮𝗱𝘃𝗶𝗰𝗲; ghost your eating disorder and eat the sweets! 👻💀

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#halloween #anorexia #eatingdisorder #recovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery
October 31, 2025 at 7:31 PM
I suppose it’s a good sign that I’m wishing I had IOP tomorrow, not in two days.

Blessed Samhain, everyone.
November 1, 2025 at 12:58 AM
Week 1 IOP done.

We had a smaller group today, and between that and me warming up a tiny bit, I was able to open up more and receive more support. Made me feel more like it’s worth it.

We’ll see if it holds into week 2, because we’ll have slightly different people and a different therapist.
October 31, 2025 at 4:21 PM
Didn’t today but the vibes were slightly better so maybe I’ll make a go at it tomorrow.
My IOP has a mix of reasons people are there. Severe burnout, anxiety, bad depression… so I’ve been kinda hesitant to mention the ED. Thinking of trying to break the ice on that today. We’ll see the vibes. I’m still hesitant about how I feel about here
October 31, 2025 at 1:29 AM
My IOP has a mix of reasons people are there. Severe burnout, anxiety, bad depression… so I’ve been kinda hesitant to mention the ED. Thinking of trying to break the ice on that today. We’ll see the vibes. I’m still hesitant about how I feel about here
October 30, 2025 at 12:30 PM
2nd day IOP done. Resonating less this time because there was someone there who wasn’t there last time who arrived late, left early, didn’t seem to be taking themself or others seriously, and also just… talked a lot. About themself. Very “woe is me but also I don’t really want to improve” energy.
October 28, 2025 at 5:18 PM
Psych is starting me on lurasidone. And is worried enough about me she wants to see me next week.
October 27, 2025 at 11:38 PM