3.5~4部/ 承夢 / (2/2)

their trainer (regular salary man) (not suspicious)

im standing between people who thinks its morbidly offensive, people who think its fap material, people who offer their condolences but i think all i wanted was forgetting my long time romantic interest is my parent so i can eat an ice cream and not have random flashbacks at midnight

i constantly chased and tried to be around people in their late 20s or early 30s when i was 14-19, i feel so zoned out from online discussions related to topics like what i went through bc most of them dont even feel like its about real people and are just some nebulous online battle points idc abt

interaction is closed bc i dont really want comforting per se, but ig like i dont even know if at this stage i can go to a therapist yet bc if the first therapist i get is a man and didnt work out i think i would lose trust in all of them, and it just meant im not ready for that yet

i think thats why identity is such a hard topic in my head bc a lot of it i can somehow rationalize in my head if i man up and don't be a girl, all my parent's preference in sex could just be a bro thing even though it doesnt make sense, and that cant explain away the playful kissing or slapping

i feel the need to physically fight when ppl pretend jerking off to buff men being whiny in fanfiction is more woke than me drawing women in pretty outfits

not that the numbers matter that much its more like whenever i draw men it always escape containment and gather the most annoying ppl over on twitter lmao

MILF HER UP

i miss my helmet girls