Jackson but he can't see
@foxwithablindfold.bsky.social
AD for Jackson, I'll probably talk about bondage because that's my current mood, but I might also talk about dicks
Gay Demisexual
Gay Demisexual
Eh. Fuck it. I'll get a tiny bottle of vodka. It'll destroy my stomach but whatever. I have a bad feeling.
November 12, 2025 at 2:09 PM
Eh. Fuck it. I'll get a tiny bottle of vodka. It'll destroy my stomach but whatever. I have a bad feeling.
Hugs from family just feel. Idk obligatory or socially contracted or something. I don't really feel anything from them. Friends hugging you seems more like a choice they made because they care about you without any pressure from the social expectation to care about your family.
November 12, 2025 at 1:26 PM
Hugs from family just feel. Idk obligatory or socially contracted or something. I don't really feel anything from them. Friends hugging you seems more like a choice they made because they care about you without any pressure from the social expectation to care about your family.
And so it begins.
November 12, 2025 at 12:59 PM
And so it begins.
Though friends are figuring it out now. Parents and therapist are still tricked. I should probably call her for an emergency session. My birthday is fucking me up. I don't get why I want to be wished a happy birthday. I guess it's just wanting someone to notice me.
November 12, 2025 at 1:38 AM
Though friends are figuring it out now. Parents and therapist are still tricked. I should probably call her for an emergency session. My birthday is fucking me up. I don't get why I want to be wished a happy birthday. I guess it's just wanting someone to notice me.
Please tell me if this isn't hiding these
November 12, 2025 at 12:52 AM
Please tell me if this isn't hiding these
8 pm meds it is.
November 12, 2025 at 12:52 AM
8 pm meds it is.
Miserable and nothing to distract myself.
November 12, 2025 at 12:29 AM
Miserable and nothing to distract myself.
Wish I was busy.
November 12, 2025 at 12:28 AM
Wish I was busy.
Fucking fucking fuckhead
November 11, 2025 at 11:21 PM
Fucking fucking fuckhead
Bucked up and told my parents I don't want to do anything for my birthday tomorrow. Getting older is just a subject of sadness for me. Though I would like to be wished a happy birthday.
November 11, 2025 at 10:15 PM
Bucked up and told my parents I don't want to do anything for my birthday tomorrow. Getting older is just a subject of sadness for me. Though I would like to be wished a happy birthday.
Okay seeing happy people. I'm enjoying that.
November 11, 2025 at 9:39 PM
Okay seeing happy people. I'm enjoying that.
Happy and sad about things is something I get a lot. But the happiness helps. I need every bit I can get.
November 11, 2025 at 8:37 PM
Happy and sad about things is something I get a lot. But the happiness helps. I need every bit I can get.
Ough I do feel a bit better. But even now. The brain is trying to make me be more public about this. If some cares enough to look through my replies, I guess that's okay. It'll probably result in being me being pushed away but someone telling me they saw this would be relieving. And mortifying.
November 11, 2025 at 8:32 PM
Ough I do feel a bit better. But even now. The brain is trying to make me be more public about this. If some cares enough to look through my replies, I guess that's okay. It'll probably result in being me being pushed away but someone telling me they saw this would be relieving. And mortifying.
Worse for me. Probably not you. So I guess ignore that if you feel like it.
November 11, 2025 at 8:26 PM
Worse for me. Probably not you. So I guess ignore that if you feel like it.
Okay. Checking using my main confirms these can only be seen if replies are viewed. I probably should've checked that first, but glad it's confirmed.
If I ever hurt you. Made you uncomfortable. Tell me. Say it. Even verbally mid call if you have to. It's worse if I piece it together.
If I ever hurt you. Made you uncomfortable. Tell me. Say it. Even verbally mid call if you have to. It's worse if I piece it together.
November 11, 2025 at 8:23 PM
Okay. Checking using my main confirms these can only be seen if replies are viewed. I probably should've checked that first, but glad it's confirmed.
If I ever hurt you. Made you uncomfortable. Tell me. Say it. Even verbally mid call if you have to. It's worse if I piece it together.
If I ever hurt you. Made you uncomfortable. Tell me. Say it. Even verbally mid call if you have to. It's worse if I piece it together.
I'm socially inept. I have no filter. I can't differentiate the thoughts in my head from reality. But I'm paranoid. I notice things. And eventually enough things that I can't explain away pile up into something I can't deny.
November 11, 2025 at 8:19 PM
I'm socially inept. I have no filter. I can't differentiate the thoughts in my head from reality. But I'm paranoid. I notice things. And eventually enough things that I can't explain away pile up into something I can't deny.
Because if the person doesn't think I can be trusted even with the fact that I hurt them, It's a personal failing of the highest degree. And that's not something that should be forgotten.
November 11, 2025 at 8:17 PM
Because if the person doesn't think I can be trusted even with the fact that I hurt them, It's a personal failing of the highest degree. And that's not something that should be forgotten.
If I find out immediately, it hurts. A lot. But the pain will fade. If I find out later. It's almost forever. I remember times I've acted like a fucking idiot even when I'm drunk.
November 11, 2025 at 8:17 PM
If I find out immediately, it hurts. A lot. But the pain will fade. If I find out later. It's almost forever. I remember times I've acted like a fucking idiot even when I'm drunk.
That's why I so frequently ask people to not hide the fact that I hurt them. It's mainly because I want to know so I can try to correct the behavior. Which takes a fucking long time. But a huge part is because the alternative is almost permanent.
November 11, 2025 at 8:13 PM
That's why I so frequently ask people to not hide the fact that I hurt them. It's mainly because I want to know so I can try to correct the behavior. Which takes a fucking long time. But a huge part is because the alternative is almost permanent.
If I've ever hurt someone, which happens a lot because I can barely control the sewage that comes out of my mouth and they didn't tell me immediately and I found out later. That's a permanent memory. My brain will not miss an opportunity to get a valid reason to hate itself.
November 11, 2025 at 8:13 PM
If I've ever hurt someone, which happens a lot because I can barely control the sewage that comes out of my mouth and they didn't tell me immediately and I found out later. That's a permanent memory. My brain will not miss an opportunity to get a valid reason to hate itself.
Nobody would ever check my replies to see this. There's no reason to take notice. I'm hoping I'm safe. Making someone feel bad yet again would just give my brain yet another chance to form a permanent memory to flashback to when I get like this.
November 11, 2025 at 8:13 PM
Nobody would ever check my replies to see this. There's no reason to take notice. I'm hoping I'm safe. Making someone feel bad yet again would just give my brain yet another chance to form a permanent memory to flashback to when I get like this.
If I could find a way, I'd be drunk right now. I'm glad I can't drink. It'd just make it worse. I'd fuck up and express how badly I'm doing to someone and upset them.
November 11, 2025 at 8:06 PM
If I could find a way, I'd be drunk right now. I'm glad I can't drink. It'd just make it worse. I'd fuck up and express how badly I'm doing to someone and upset them.