THANK YOU RARA !!!!! LOVE YOU DEARLY

Thank you for tagging me too, Rara

food: salmon
season: fall
color: 1c86ee
drink: water
anime: kino no tabi

WOOOOOOO GLAD YOU ENJOYED ICE

It was a great honor !!! TO MANY MORE !!!!!!

Every waking second until I can no longer breathe, that is the goal. Wallowing in my pain, self-pity, regret .. it will all just bring me back to where I was or worse. So, I must stand up and embrace my challenges -- but properly directed this time.

It may be too late to lighten what I have left them, but now I know the type of self I must shed away in order to have even the slightest chance of experiencing a life worth living. The closest thing to being vindicated is helping more people than I hurt. And, that is what I will dedicate myself to

And, I hate that I walked through it for so long. The weight of these mistakes are heavy, but they have to be. I may have even left those around me with more than I bare.

Or even, the destructive habits I would use to cope with my stress instead of finding refuge in vulnerability provided by those that accepted me

In this reading, I saw a mirror that projects just how far and where that road takes you. And, I detest that I even step foot in that direction.

It has been a very, very long year and now that I am at the end of it-- everything I worked toward is being questioned and thrown back at me. The realizations of incessant selfishness settle in. Awakenings of how cold I was to those that loved me most.