work makes me feel like im going to d** sometimes but i cannot see myself in anything else than film production

cannot handle how reassuring this is rn bc i still feel like internally im in constant panic but thank u so much alice 🫂 i will know ☝️

the freedom already feels crazy thought im so happy i left that office job

my work is project based so i get employed by different companies every time but that means i have to learn and relearn stuff all the time and be real adaptable and im soooo scared not to fuck up but i also need to learn to trust myself and put boundaries. so many new things

perfect. it kind of clicks now why everyone in this industry has history with some kind of substance abuse 😭

2 weeks in and i feel like im constantly shaking in my boots